Making your way in the world today takes everything you've got.
Taking a break from all your worries, sure would help a lot.
Have you ever woken from a wonderful dream, only to begin crying because it wasn't real? Today is one of those days. I just had probably the best dream of my life.. only problem is, it wasn't real. So I'm moping over that fact, wondering if the overlaying concepts will still become reality for me. Basically, the entire thing focused over my being with Joe.
Not only had I been with Joe dating-wise before vacation, but he chose me over three other attractive people, whom didn't like him, but still.. He ran off with me together, kissed me.. told me flat out that he loved me. I got to walk by my friends with his arms around me, and I recall in the dream hoping they noticed us..
I honestly don't know if most of that could/will come true.. I only know that I'm rather deeply in love with the boy, according to everyone he loves me, and I guess this is how I show my feelings.. in my dreams. I have still yet to talk to him.. but do hope to in the near future.. To make sure he does love me.. Like I've heard from my friends.. and I've heard from the messages he's said to deliver..
You see.. come to find out. His trip that made me reschedule mine.. has been changed to being from the 24th to the following Thursday.. I would've been there right on damned time.. So, if you can imagine, I'm probably at the pinnacle of my moods because of it..
Why can't he just be at home for the phone to ring so I can hear him tell me himself that he loves me?? Is that so god damned much to ask?? See.. now I'm getting hysterical again..
Hell, more shit has been happening then I'd ever take time to record here.. except in perhaps in friend-only entrees.. I may start to do that so it doesn't leak.. but you'll be damned sure that I need to get everything out.. From being in fights with Cody.. to my intense feelings for Joe.. to my father and his temper..
Well.. this was definitely a softer side of me shown today.. understandably.. I just woke up.. had a great dream and miss it.. am already doubting things because of it.. and feel like a beaten dog due to circumstances that I will not explain here between Cody and I last night.. I'm drained people. Today is my calling day for Joe.. And my mother still wants a Christmas list..!!
Help??
Have you ever woken from a wonderful dream, only to begin crying because it wasn't real? Today is one of those days. I just had probably the best dream of my life.. only problem is, it wasn't real. So I'm moping over that fact, wondering if the overlaying concepts will still become reality for me. Basically, the entire thing focused over my being with Joe.
Not only had I been with Joe dating-wise before vacation, but he chose me over three other attractive people, whom didn't like him, but still.. He ran off with me together, kissed me.. told me flat out that he loved me. I got to walk by my friends with his arms around me, and I recall in the dream hoping they noticed us..
I honestly don't know if most of that could/will come true.. I only know that I'm rather deeply in love with the boy, according to everyone he loves me, and I guess this is how I show my feelings.. in my dreams. I have still yet to talk to him.. but do hope to in the near future.. To make sure he does love me.. Like I've heard from my friends.. and I've heard from the messages he's said to deliver..
You see.. come to find out. His trip that made me reschedule mine.. has been changed to being from the 24th to the following Thursday.. I would've been there right on damned time.. So, if you can imagine, I'm probably at the pinnacle of my moods because of it..
Why can't he just be at home for the phone to ring so I can hear him tell me himself that he loves me?? Is that so god damned much to ask?? See.. now I'm getting hysterical again..
Hell, more shit has been happening then I'd ever take time to record here.. except in perhaps in friend-only entrees.. I may start to do that so it doesn't leak.. but you'll be damned sure that I need to get everything out.. From being in fights with Cody.. to my intense feelings for Joe.. to my father and his temper..
Well.. this was definitely a softer side of me shown today.. understandably.. I just woke up.. had a great dream and miss it.. am already doubting things because of it.. and feel like a beaten dog due to circumstances that I will not explain here between Cody and I last night.. I'm drained people. Today is my calling day for Joe.. And my mother still wants a Christmas list..!!
Help??