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I cant sleep tonight. Ryan sleeps on the side of the bed I used to sleep on, before I moved in. I have adjusted well to sleeping on the other side, but I think some nights my body just wants to be on that side I used to sleep on. I'm sure if i asked, he would switch with me, but lets face it, even with my boyfriend, I'm still too nice. Sometimes.. It is April already. The older I get, the faster time flies. Why, next thing I'll know, I'll be sporting a cane and acting like one of those old crotchety people I occasionally encounter at work. At work, I am one of those people everybody likes, but nobody really appreciates. But isn't that the way it goes? However, this time, I really do not care. I read a few journal entries from a few years back, and all I could think was, "Christ, why was I such a victim?" I guess I felt like the world owed me something. What that something was, I had no idea then, and I still have no idea now. All I can figure was that it was absolutely nothing. I might have mentioned something about applying to the nursing program and if I didnt get in, I would pursue a career in culinary arts. Take a guess as to what happened. The day I got the rejection letter, before I received it, I decided that maybe one day I will be a nurse, but at this point in my life, I do not see it happening. Why? I do not have the right state of mind for it. Right now, I'm not a caregiver or even a caring person particularly. I do not go out of my way to be nice to people and if i heard someone in distress, I would most likely pretend I did not hear it. This is not what a good nurse makes. Yeah, there is the possibility that if I went through the classes and all that junk, I would somehow morph into that caring nurse type. Who knows? I dont. If I want to start a career, making a living, and stop depending on my boyfriend to pay the rent, I have to pick a path and stick to it. Culinary arts it is! I am happy with this. Perhaps this time I will actually become that pastry chef ive always wanted to be.
On a totally unrelated note, I really had no idea that Nevada got earthquakes. It is not like California where they get them all the time though. I felt one last week, without even realized it was an earthquake. Today I felt one. It was stronger and I have to admit that I was indeed a little frightened this time around. I am secretly anticipating the next one though.
Ok, bed time now.
On a totally unrelated note, I really had no idea that Nevada got earthquakes. It is not like California where they get them all the time though. I felt one last week, without even realized it was an earthquake. Today I felt one. It was stronger and I have to admit that I was indeed a little frightened this time around. I am secretly anticipating the next one though.
Ok, bed time now.