Facing Writing
I can't go three days without writing. Even if I'm made of aches and there's an abattoir in my panties, I still have to do it. Three days. I haven't written in three days, and already it seems insurmountable to start up again.
Sometimes, I feel like forcing myself to write leads to things I don't like. The last little bit that I wrote is all wrong. And it's really only the last few lines that need to be changed, but I'm still struggling to face it.
The point is, writing that bit was like pulling teeth. I don't know how to handle that scenario. Normally, even when I don't feel up to writing, or simply afraid to do it because I might do it badly, and I force myself to begin, it eases into a flow I can keep up for a while. But when it doesn't, what then? I don't know how to tackle that. Force myself to keep going even when I know I hate what I'm writing, or that it just isn't right in terms of what I want from a scene or where I want it to lead? Or stop, step back from it, ponder, make notes, etc., and then come back to it right away? I think that's the problem, maybe: Regardless of whether I pull back or keep writing what's wrong, I don't come back right away. Then it becomes even more difficult to face the next time.
Anyway, it will work out. I just need to get back to it. In five, four, three, two...
Sometimes, I feel like forcing myself to write leads to things I don't like. The last little bit that I wrote is all wrong. And it's really only the last few lines that need to be changed, but I'm still struggling to face it.
The point is, writing that bit was like pulling teeth. I don't know how to handle that scenario. Normally, even when I don't feel up to writing, or simply afraid to do it because I might do it badly, and I force myself to begin, it eases into a flow I can keep up for a while. But when it doesn't, what then? I don't know how to tackle that. Force myself to keep going even when I know I hate what I'm writing, or that it just isn't right in terms of what I want from a scene or where I want it to lead? Or stop, step back from it, ponder, make notes, etc., and then come back to it right away? I think that's the problem, maybe: Regardless of whether I pull back or keep writing what's wrong, I don't come back right away. Then it becomes even more difficult to face the next time.
Anyway, it will work out. I just need to get back to it. In five, four, three, two...