Cracked
Some things never seem to change you know......whether your getting drunk or constantly sober, out with mates or in on the computer maybe your just not meant to be at peace. Ever. With anything. Food turned to ash in our mouths. Im choking on ash and dust of my own making. So many thoughts in my head can't hear one above the din of the rest. Feel like i just need to talk for a few hours solid until it's all emptied out....but there's no-one to talk to anymore. I'd be lying if i didn't know i was going to miss that but would it even help? I need rest. Im so exausted no matter how much i have to sleep, my mind just feels like its been through a mincer. It's like trying to play a dozen games of chess at once without even been comfortable with the rules. Just want somewhere to lay my head down for a while and know i'll be protected, cared for. Back in days when we were young and the world was new. Stop the voices therestoo many. Everything's blurring, a mishmash of thoughts and desires, soundbites, images and memories. So tired