Away From The Sun
So Ryan wants to take me out Saturday.. and I was all for it.. now I'm like.. I dunno.. its like leadin him on ain't it? and I don't want him bein all like "maybe if I do this, she'll take me back" ya know? Cuz personally.. I don't want back with him.. I don't trust a damn word he tells me.. and I feel so incomplete when I'm with him.. and I shouldn't feel that way.. I should feel complete.. am I right?? Once upon a time.. I did feel complete with him.. but hes done so much to me and not even realized it.. that I lost all I had for him. Theres so much to it and its hard to explain.. i'm not one thats able to put my feelings into words easily when it comes to this stuff! Now i'm startin to cry.. god i'm pathetic. I dunno.. I just want someone.. who I can see and hang out with and have fun ya know.(Had that much with Ryan)I want someone who no matter what, will tell me the truth..he won't find it to lie to me about anything. I mean i'm a easy person to get along with as long as you don't lie to me.. because sooner or later I find out the truth. I'm not as stupid as some people see me. Most girls wants someone who will.. just randomly give her a single rose or a little present like that.. I know thats everyones dream.. but theres so much more to it and I want that.. but no ones like that.. everyones life can't be a fairy tale. I guess sometimes what I want.. isn't what I need.
Something else to go on about.. I'm sick of people.. blamin everything on me! I mean god.. i'm not rude like most people.. I don't say shiit bout other people.. unless I really hate them..and truthfully in the Clio School District.. I hate 3 people enough to say crap about them like that. N I hardly see any of them enough to even begin to start crap with them. So I mean wth? I have to be the bad person.. when someone else is the one out there lyin. I mean.. for god sakes.. lets lie to one of our friends, have her find out the truth... and u expect her to still talk to you and be all happy and fine with it all? Ohh my favortie part.. is to blame it all on ME!! I didn't say anything.. the only people who I told.. were my closest friends! n they ain't sayin shiit to anyone!! They know better.. Hints why were "BEST FRIENDS!" we keep each others secrets.. n the only time anyone of us would possibly tell another person..something the other told us.. would be if one of us knew something the others need to know. Else wise.. no one finds out. Its like our own circle of trust.
Bre Barnett, Kim Sather and Mary Gregory.. you all rock so much.. I love you all dearly!! <3
Something else to go on about.. I'm sick of people.. blamin everything on me! I mean god.. i'm not rude like most people.. I don't say shiit bout other people.. unless I really hate them..and truthfully in the Clio School District.. I hate 3 people enough to say crap about them like that. N I hardly see any of them enough to even begin to start crap with them. So I mean wth? I have to be the bad person.. when someone else is the one out there lyin. I mean.. for god sakes.. lets lie to one of our friends, have her find out the truth... and u expect her to still talk to you and be all happy and fine with it all? Ohh my favortie part.. is to blame it all on ME!! I didn't say anything.. the only people who I told.. were my closest friends! n they ain't sayin shiit to anyone!! They know better.. Hints why were "BEST FRIENDS!" we keep each others secrets.. n the only time anyone of us would possibly tell another person..something the other told us.. would be if one of us knew something the others need to know. Else wise.. no one finds out. Its like our own circle of trust.
Bre Barnett, Kim Sather and Mary Gregory.. you all rock so much.. I love you all dearly!! <3