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evening old friends...
updates to this some day invaluable memior of my life.
i think i officially fit into the framework of "shut-in" at this point. Which i always thought would suck, and i geuss at times im bored, but i actually am overall happier i geuss? By experiencing minimal outside world interferance, I really never deal with sorrow or grief or sadness. Ella's post tonight made me realize I havent heard or read the news in ages. I am never faced with my own mortality and the pressure that comes with knowing of the ever-increassing degree of suffering throughout the world. I geuss like most everything else, there are benefits and issues with being more and more of a hermit. I think i'm more happy more of the time though. I do miss the stories and experiences of being sociable, just decided it wasnt worth it anymore. To put my life in very metaphorical trying-way-too-hard-to-be-philisophical terms, Although I like waking up with scars in the morning, I just decided it wasnt worth it to get them anymore.
updates to this some day invaluable memior of my life.
i think i officially fit into the framework of "shut-in" at this point. Which i always thought would suck, and i geuss at times im bored, but i actually am overall happier i geuss? By experiencing minimal outside world interferance, I really never deal with sorrow or grief or sadness. Ella's post tonight made me realize I havent heard or read the news in ages. I am never faced with my own mortality and the pressure that comes with knowing of the ever-increassing degree of suffering throughout the world. I geuss like most everything else, there are benefits and issues with being more and more of a hermit. I think i'm more happy more of the time though. I do miss the stories and experiences of being sociable, just decided it wasnt worth it anymore. To put my life in very metaphorical trying-way-too-hard-to-be-philisophical terms, Although I like waking up with scars in the morning, I just decided it wasnt worth it to get them anymore.