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Barnum in a week, and I'm super excited, but super freaked. I want so badly for this show to come together. And some nights, I have such a great singing voice, and others it's just... blah. I still have a long way to go in my voice lessons. But, once I get this fully memorized, it'll come together, and I can deal with learning "why" at some later date. I love my song, and I'm so freaking happy I finally got a decent sized role. Being the bad guy in Guys and Dolls was cool, but it's so much more awesome to have a solo. Even for only being on stage for less time, it's still incredible for me. I love this show. This may be the first time I'm ever sad to see a show end. I want to just keep doing it, again and again, until I know every single juggling trick and balancing act and side show ability that I can possibly do. I walked on glass, I layed on a bed of nails, I jammed my hand into a bear trap, and I got out of a straight jacket in under 5 minutes. I can juggle balls, clubs, knives, diablo rollers, devil sticks, and in some instances, people. I'm a center base for our human pyramid, and I have a whole choreography sequence with lifting a girl, spinning her around, tossing her INTO a flip and then rolling forward. I'm loving all of it. Every minute is just magnificent. I hope theater really stays this way for me. I hope it's always new and wonderful for me. And I really hope I'm good enough. I really hope I warrant advancing, making something out of myself. I really hope that one day, I'll get a lead role, and get it specifically because I was good enough for it, not because no one else was. I want to fill a lead role like second skin.
Really crossing my fingers for NYU. If I don't get in there, I don't think I'll get the training I need to ever break into the business. Just hoping...
Really crossing my fingers for NYU. If I don't get in there, I don't think I'll get the training I need to ever break into the business. Just hoping...