It's not Wednesday
But that's why I didn't promise. Seriously, though, I am very tired. And also sore. My back's been killing me all weekend. Oh well, at least there was work for me this weekend. More on that in a bit.
So Thursday I got to meet Kristy's friend Ben. He seems nice, I've seen him around campus before. We hung out for a bit and watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, which was fantastic. Then we went out to the beach. There was a bit of a yelling, and an awfully long awkward silence. Ben tried to fix it to no avail. Then Leigh tried to fix it, which caused a bit more yelling. And another awkward silence. We got to the beach, and as I was helping Leigh find her way out (she has no night vision whatsoever), Kristy went on ahead. Now I had only been to this place once before and haven't actually gone farther than the cliff. It's basically just many large craggy rocks that are great for climbing. When I got out there, Kristy had disappeared. Obviously I was very worried. I had to jump out and traverse the rocks at night. But I was a little worried and wanted to find out what was going on so that drove most of the fear away. The climbing actually turned out to be very fun. But luckily it didn't take me long to find Kristy, who was hiding in a small break in the rocks. I talked with her for a little while. And I got a sign that made me really want to be with her. For those of you who know me I tend to look for signs in relationships. Signs that tell me that I really want to be with someone. That was the kind of sign I got from her. Anyway we eventually dropped Ben off and he gave me his seal of approval. Which was good, because I was a little nervous.
Friday I went into work. A bit odd for me, but Ron's been out sick so they wanted me to fill in for him. It wasn't really necessary now that Bill is back on assembly, but whatever. Eberron was fun Friday night. Saturday was more work. Not much to do, but the safety team was there and I got to help them with their halloween safety scavenger hunt for the kids that come into the store. It was fun. I love little kids. Many of them were very cute, and only a handful were brats. So after that I left work to head back home. Unfortunately everyone else was doing it at the same time and it took me 50 minutes just to get out of the parking lot. The only time I ever get road rage is in traffic jams, and I was getting it pretty badly then. I ended up having to change into my costume without even taking a shower. Blarg. Anyway Prophecy was more fun than usual. Anytime I can come up with a line that I can't even say without cracking up, I know I'm doing a good job. This morning's church made me think a lot, but I'll get to that towards the end. I worked in toys pretty much all day today. I finally got to meet Danielle's husband. They're both very young so it seems really weird to me. But whatever, they seem happy. Now I'm home and AIM is being all crappy and not letting me sign on. Double blarg. Onto some more serious stuff. So leave now if you don't want to read it.
Well, church this morning and the election on Tuesday has given me a lot to think about. The most important thing that I've been sort of mulling over all day is my belief system. Ever since I've got into college it's been changing. Well, more since I got confirmed. But I disagree with some of the church's teachings. I believe in evolution, first of all, which syncs up with Genesis to some degree. But there are other things, like I believe that not all gay people are going to hell. It would just be stupid. And not all the other religions are wrong either. But today I realized that my opinions on a lot of matters are not really set yet. I don't know who I am entirely. And it made going to church feel like a lie. Like I was supporting something that I didn't entirely believe in. I believe in God and Jesus and the sacraments, but not every detail that the church preaches. So it seems wrong. This election is something else that's really rubbing me the wrong way. It brings to mind a couple of references in some of my favorite books. First from Sock, "If you choose between the lesser of two evils, evil still wins" (It was something like that anyway). And that's what this election feels like. I'm really torn on who to vote for. And voting just on one issue that I am sure I believe in seems stupid if I don't believe in all the issues that that specific candidate supports. The second quote is from one of the Hitchhiker's Guide books, "It is a well-known fact that those people who must want to rule people are, ipso facto, those least suited to do it...anyone who is capable of getting themselves made president should on no account be allowed to do the job." After all the mudslinging in this campaign, I really don't feel great about either candidate. Which brings up the issue of voting: should I vote for someone I don't totally believe in, or should I not vote and let everyone else decide what is best. Not voting seems very stupid, but Kerry or Bush will (almost definitely) win the election. There should be a box on the form for "other", meaning,"please pick better candidates then these, you're confusing me." Anyway, that was long and seemed a bit like rambling, so I'll stop now.
To summarize: I am very confused about some things, and even more convinced on others. More on this after the election probably.
So Thursday I got to meet Kristy's friend Ben. He seems nice, I've seen him around campus before. We hung out for a bit and watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, which was fantastic. Then we went out to the beach. There was a bit of a yelling, and an awfully long awkward silence. Ben tried to fix it to no avail. Then Leigh tried to fix it, which caused a bit more yelling. And another awkward silence. We got to the beach, and as I was helping Leigh find her way out (she has no night vision whatsoever), Kristy went on ahead. Now I had only been to this place once before and haven't actually gone farther than the cliff. It's basically just many large craggy rocks that are great for climbing. When I got out there, Kristy had disappeared. Obviously I was very worried. I had to jump out and traverse the rocks at night. But I was a little worried and wanted to find out what was going on so that drove most of the fear away. The climbing actually turned out to be very fun. But luckily it didn't take me long to find Kristy, who was hiding in a small break in the rocks. I talked with her for a little while. And I got a sign that made me really want to be with her. For those of you who know me I tend to look for signs in relationships. Signs that tell me that I really want to be with someone. That was the kind of sign I got from her. Anyway we eventually dropped Ben off and he gave me his seal of approval. Which was good, because I was a little nervous.
Friday I went into work. A bit odd for me, but Ron's been out sick so they wanted me to fill in for him. It wasn't really necessary now that Bill is back on assembly, but whatever. Eberron was fun Friday night. Saturday was more work. Not much to do, but the safety team was there and I got to help them with their halloween safety scavenger hunt for the kids that come into the store. It was fun. I love little kids. Many of them were very cute, and only a handful were brats. So after that I left work to head back home. Unfortunately everyone else was doing it at the same time and it took me 50 minutes just to get out of the parking lot. The only time I ever get road rage is in traffic jams, and I was getting it pretty badly then. I ended up having to change into my costume without even taking a shower. Blarg. Anyway Prophecy was more fun than usual. Anytime I can come up with a line that I can't even say without cracking up, I know I'm doing a good job. This morning's church made me think a lot, but I'll get to that towards the end. I worked in toys pretty much all day today. I finally got to meet Danielle's husband. They're both very young so it seems really weird to me. But whatever, they seem happy. Now I'm home and AIM is being all crappy and not letting me sign on. Double blarg. Onto some more serious stuff. So leave now if you don't want to read it.
Well, church this morning and the election on Tuesday has given me a lot to think about. The most important thing that I've been sort of mulling over all day is my belief system. Ever since I've got into college it's been changing. Well, more since I got confirmed. But I disagree with some of the church's teachings. I believe in evolution, first of all, which syncs up with Genesis to some degree. But there are other things, like I believe that not all gay people are going to hell. It would just be stupid. And not all the other religions are wrong either. But today I realized that my opinions on a lot of matters are not really set yet. I don't know who I am entirely. And it made going to church feel like a lie. Like I was supporting something that I didn't entirely believe in. I believe in God and Jesus and the sacraments, but not every detail that the church preaches. So it seems wrong. This election is something else that's really rubbing me the wrong way. It brings to mind a couple of references in some of my favorite books. First from Sock, "If you choose between the lesser of two evils, evil still wins" (It was something like that anyway). And that's what this election feels like. I'm really torn on who to vote for. And voting just on one issue that I am sure I believe in seems stupid if I don't believe in all the issues that that specific candidate supports. The second quote is from one of the Hitchhiker's Guide books, "It is a well-known fact that those people who must want to rule people are, ipso facto, those least suited to do it...anyone who is capable of getting themselves made president should on no account be allowed to do the job." After all the mudslinging in this campaign, I really don't feel great about either candidate. Which brings up the issue of voting: should I vote for someone I don't totally believe in, or should I not vote and let everyone else decide what is best. Not voting seems very stupid, but Kerry or Bush will (almost definitely) win the election. There should be a box on the form for "other", meaning,"please pick better candidates then these, you're confusing me." Anyway, that was long and seemed a bit like rambling, so I'll stop now.
To summarize: I am very confused about some things, and even more convinced on others. More on this after the election probably.