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bored as fuck. sick of being here. i hate it here. not like home would be any better. maybe i just hate myself. i refuse to waste the whole day away in bed. but theres nothing better to do. so i sit around and mope. im just a whiny little nothing.
i read alot of erics stuff, when i can find it. not much left to find. i dont know. its just so strange. and it occupies my time. depressing but better than sitting in bed. doing nothing. my phone is dead. wont work. my mom is drunk and has taken to emailing me because i havent been calling.
i agreed to go to illinois. i think it will be fun. at least a vacation from work. thats all i really have to say about it.
i drove again today. i cant handle it. i dont know how people can, im way too nervous. then again, it was easier when i drove an automatic.
i dont know whats wrong with me.
but something is.
i read alot of erics stuff, when i can find it. not much left to find. i dont know. its just so strange. and it occupies my time. depressing but better than sitting in bed. doing nothing. my phone is dead. wont work. my mom is drunk and has taken to emailing me because i havent been calling.
i agreed to go to illinois. i think it will be fun. at least a vacation from work. thats all i really have to say about it.
i drove again today. i cant handle it. i dont know how people can, im way too nervous. then again, it was easier when i drove an automatic.
i dont know whats wrong with me.
but something is.