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hes wreaking havoc on my emotions. i am really getting sick of it. i feel like i cant handle it. but here i am, still sitting here, still taking it. sometimes im pissed. sometimes im depressed. sometimes i just stop thinking and float along quietly. right now im frustrated. it makes me want to hate him. it makes me want to hate her. why? i dont understand. why does it have to be hard? why cant he just let it be easy? why does he h ave to fight it like this? he does it subtley but i still notice it. im not stupid. all its doing is burying me deeper while he floats along with everything he wants and i get nothing.
people i dont know are coming to see me. i want to leave. i dont want to talk to strangers. they make me uncomfortable. i only came home so early because hes come over everyday since ive been here at 4. i walked home in the rain from melissas. its 450 now and hes not here. he didnt even call. im going to guess hes not showing up. i wanted to take him to dinner tonight. well fuck that. ill just sit here bored out of my mind while i people i dont know badger me with questions they could find answers to on the internet.
people i dont know are coming to see me. i want to leave. i dont want to talk to strangers. they make me uncomfortable. i only came home so early because hes come over everyday since ive been here at 4. i walked home in the rain from melissas. its 450 now and hes not here. he didnt even call. im going to guess hes not showing up. i wanted to take him to dinner tonight. well fuck that. ill just sit here bored out of my mind while i people i dont know badger me with questions they could find answers to on the internet.