Avoidance
i've been trying not to post about it, but i will be looking for a new Mistress.
i told my Girlfriend about my younger years. She hasn't responded well. i haven't been used in months.
God, i need to be used. i need to be pushed so hard that the pain becomes my only reality. i need to feel the hopelessness of a never ending beating. i need the resignation of only being able to lay there, unable to move from sheer overload. i need the marks, the lasting pain whenever i move.
i am a painslut without a sadist, without a Mistress.
i don't even know any other Mistresses. Where do i start?
i told my Girlfriend about my younger years. She hasn't responded well. i haven't been used in months.
God, i need to be used. i need to be pushed so hard that the pain becomes my only reality. i need to feel the hopelessness of a never ending beating. i need the resignation of only being able to lay there, unable to move from sheer overload. i need the marks, the lasting pain whenever i move.
i am a painslut without a sadist, without a Mistress.
i don't even know any other Mistresses. Where do i start?