The GRE is Wednesday
I'm not going to do very well. At all. It would not be a stretch to say that I am going to do terribly.
First of all, I put off studying for far too long. But even if I had done a better job of it...I just don't know how much difference it would have made. My brain doesn't easily conform to the specs the GRE is asking it to.
I can live with my current math scores (I'm trying to get into a creative writing program, after all, and revisiting algebra is rather fun in an odd way) but the Analytical Writing and Verbal Reasoning portions of the test are going to completely fuck me over. They're the exact opposite of everything I love about writing: dry subjects I feel no passion for, rigid definitions of words with no room for creativity. Also, they made no fucking sense: one fill-in-the-black practice question went like: "It is ______ that Austen's satiric wit is lost on readers, as it is so _______ as to be caricature." The only answer that made sense for the second one was "broad," so I chose "inexplicable" for the first one. Sound right? WRONG! Apparently, when satire is really obvious, it is "understandable" that a reader would miss it!
FUCK YOU SO HARD, GRE. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME.
(Also, I just checked a math question that I got wrong, and it listed all the numbers that fit: 22, 24, 26, 42, 44, 46, 62, 64, 66. Nine numbers, right? NOT ACCORDING TO THE PETERSON'S GRE PREPARATION BOOK. Apparently, that's twelve numbers right there. I guess the extra three are invisible. And okay, yes, this was a prep book, and the actual GRE probably won't have mistakes like that--but now I'm wondering how many mistakes I've corrected that were right, and that I'll now get wrong because of that correction?)
The worst thing is the shock of this. The ACT and SAT were stressful, sure, but I did well on them. I understood what they wanted from me, and I was able to prepare myself and gather my resources to deliver. I test well. I have always tested well. But not this time. Every time I study and then do another practice test I think, "This time my score will be better." But it's not.
Edited because rage makes me forget about antonyms.