Push me over the edge.
So a lot has happened. I don't really feel like typing it all, not to mention moms watching me like constantly.
I went to the hospital Tuesday night because I was thinking about committing Suicide. Yeah shocker.
Not to mention I cut my leg and shoulder so deep that it kept me up all night from bleeding on my sheets and hurting. I managed to clean my sheets without anyone noticing but my therapist read my journal, I let her because I wanted...and I guess needed help. I was then sent all around the place with my tearful mom. I felt ridiculous in the ambulance, since they won't let suicidal patients travel in anything besides am emergency squad. Though I admit it was fun, but not the being mostly naked part...stupid.
But yeah now I'm home and idk if I should be, sure I wanted to come home but am I ready?
Apparently I have Social Anxiety, Idk if I was diagnosed but I took a questionnaire for the psychiatrist at the hospital about it and I went over the normal score. I agree though, I hate groups of people, or new people etc.
I take new medicine and it makes me sleepy and it's still on a low dose..imagine a higher one? lol
Sorry I'm jumping around but I'm out of it.
Ugh school is scaring the shit out of me for tomorrow...I wanna go back to the hospital but just not to sleep there lol...idk
I went to the hospital Tuesday night because I was thinking about committing Suicide. Yeah shocker.
Not to mention I cut my leg and shoulder so deep that it kept me up all night from bleeding on my sheets and hurting. I managed to clean my sheets without anyone noticing but my therapist read my journal, I let her because I wanted...and I guess needed help. I was then sent all around the place with my tearful mom. I felt ridiculous in the ambulance, since they won't let suicidal patients travel in anything besides am emergency squad. Though I admit it was fun, but not the being mostly naked part...stupid.
But yeah now I'm home and idk if I should be, sure I wanted to come home but am I ready?
Apparently I have Social Anxiety, Idk if I was diagnosed but I took a questionnaire for the psychiatrist at the hospital about it and I went over the normal score. I agree though, I hate groups of people, or new people etc.
I take new medicine and it makes me sleepy and it's still on a low dose..imagine a higher one? lol
Sorry I'm jumping around but I'm out of it.
Ugh school is scaring the shit out of me for tomorrow...I wanna go back to the hospital but just not to sleep there lol...idk