Real Gore
I usually enjoy the sight of blood.
My own I guess.
But I was in Drivers Ed and they showed this video of real events.
Now I know why your thinking because everybody I told said the same thing.
No duh they show that stuff, it's to warn you and blah blah blah.
It's not that, I know it could and probably will happen.
But.
I started to feel weird, watching it.
I actually pictured it as one of my own family members.
They tell you to do that but usually I can't do that.
This time I did.
I gripped my already picked at arms and struggled to breath.
I wanted to run out of there and out into the rain.
I thought 'What if that was my brother? Flung across the pavement, torn to bits. Or bent backwards, his spine and eternal organs all hanging out.' It literally scared the shit out of me.
I now think I don't really want to drive...But I have to.
It's all for mom.
Make Mom Happy Check List.
Get a job. Check
Get license. Check
100% what she wants.
100% Not what I really want.
Make her happy and forget myself.
This job is going to be hell.
I keep hinting I want to apply somewhere else, but it's a no for mom.
So I guess I have to keep her happy.
Been sick for a few days.
Haven't taken my meds because of that.
Oh wells, I''ll just start them again tomorrow.
My own I guess.
But I was in Drivers Ed and they showed this video of real events.
Now I know why your thinking because everybody I told said the same thing.
No duh they show that stuff, it's to warn you and blah blah blah.
It's not that, I know it could and probably will happen.
But.
I started to feel weird, watching it.
I actually pictured it as one of my own family members.
They tell you to do that but usually I can't do that.
This time I did.
I gripped my already picked at arms and struggled to breath.
I wanted to run out of there and out into the rain.
I thought 'What if that was my brother? Flung across the pavement, torn to bits. Or bent backwards, his spine and eternal organs all hanging out.' It literally scared the shit out of me.
I now think I don't really want to drive...But I have to.
It's all for mom.
Make Mom Happy Check List.
Get a job. Check
Get license. Check
100% what she wants.
100% Not what I really want.
Make her happy and forget myself.
This job is going to be hell.
I keep hinting I want to apply somewhere else, but it's a no for mom.
So I guess I have to keep her happy.
Been sick for a few days.
Haven't taken my meds because of that.
Oh wells, I''ll just start them again tomorrow.