No great quote today
So, I met Joe at Taco Bell at midnight. We drove up to the Peach Street Perkins (sometimes called Peach-kins), and we stayed there until about two. He apologized for how things were and so one. Then we messed around in his car and he took me back to Taco Bell. When we got there, he leaned over and whispered that he missed me, and bit my ear.
Then we met again on Tuesday, and things were different. I don't know what to think. I should feel used, but I don't, really. He said that, basically, he wouldn't be a good boyfriend, and he doesn't want to disappoint me. He thinks he'd be holding me back and blah blah blah.
I was doing really good on my own, and he IMs me, and now I'm back to where I started. I have to get over him all over again. And he's nothing. I mean, he seems fine to walk away from me. Why can't a guy ever feel lucky to have, and treat as though he never wants me to leave?
So, I went to the Humane Society today, to give Joe a letter I wrote to him. The letter was basically that I think we can be friends, and so on. But I want an active friendship, where we both put something into it, and we both get something out of it. It's dawning on me now that I don't think he'll put anything into it. Maybe it's just because I talked to him at work, and he doesn't really open up and show me what he's really thinking or feeling until at least an hour after we're alone.
I just care about him so much, and he seems so depressed. He told me he was so happy when he was thinking that things were going well between us. I think he thought we were going to get back together, too. But then he started thinking about why it wouldn't work, and that just ruined everything. If we're happy together and depressed when we're apart, there's sort of a logical solution here. I wish I were worth the fight to him.
Jes
Then we met again on Tuesday, and things were different. I don't know what to think. I should feel used, but I don't, really. He said that, basically, he wouldn't be a good boyfriend, and he doesn't want to disappoint me. He thinks he'd be holding me back and blah blah blah.
I was doing really good on my own, and he IMs me, and now I'm back to where I started. I have to get over him all over again. And he's nothing. I mean, he seems fine to walk away from me. Why can't a guy ever feel lucky to have, and treat as though he never wants me to leave?
So, I went to the Humane Society today, to give Joe a letter I wrote to him. The letter was basically that I think we can be friends, and so on. But I want an active friendship, where we both put something into it, and we both get something out of it. It's dawning on me now that I don't think he'll put anything into it. Maybe it's just because I talked to him at work, and he doesn't really open up and show me what he's really thinking or feeling until at least an hour after we're alone.
I just care about him so much, and he seems so depressed. He told me he was so happy when he was thinking that things were going well between us. I think he thought we were going to get back together, too. But then he started thinking about why it wouldn't work, and that just ruined everything. If we're happy together and depressed when we're apart, there's sort of a logical solution here. I wish I were worth the fight to him.
Jes