Questioning God
rite now life seems pointless. the pain we have to endure and the brief moments of happiness that tease us. what is it all for...is there a purpose? i look back and i see how i used to pretend that life was good...that i was untouchable and nothing could hurt me. i was everything a girl should be: content and polite and always smiling. ive discovered that its not like that in life...it never has been and never will be for anyone.
but why? i always wonder if god is there...and if so why does he not stop all the pain and suffering? why does he let our hearts get broken time and time again? why did he let me fall so deeeply in love and then pull me away from it all, from my dearest love? why can't he come back now...when i need him most? why do i still hold on to something i will never get back? why wont my heart let it go...let him go to the one he loves now? why does god fill me with hope for his return and then take it away so quickly? why does he slam reality into my face, knowing that i breaks me every time? why...? fuck i want to know....what did i do to diserve this...? i must something horrible to have god punish me like this. god.....
why?
but why? i always wonder if god is there...and if so why does he not stop all the pain and suffering? why does he let our hearts get broken time and time again? why did he let me fall so deeeply in love and then pull me away from it all, from my dearest love? why can't he come back now...when i need him most? why do i still hold on to something i will never get back? why wont my heart let it go...let him go to the one he loves now? why does god fill me with hope for his return and then take it away so quickly? why does he slam reality into my face, knowing that i breaks me every time? why...? fuck i want to know....what did i do to diserve this...? i must something horrible to have god punish me like this. god.....
why?