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i got called in to sub today, tomorrow, and wednesday. i really needed the money. today was my last airshift on WBTI. volleyball starts tomorrow and i'm excited for it and the fact that i'll now be busy.
i've gotten to the point where i don't like to go to bed at night anymore. for some reason, i get all freaked out. like i'll run into some evil creature in the dark or something. that, and i don't like where my thoughts go as i lie there, waiting to fall asleep. i used to be able to fall asleep to the tv when i got like this, but the tv in my room isn't hooked up. and my mom doesn't like it when i fall asleep on the couch. but sometimes i just have to because i don't like having nightmares. so lately, i've been falling asleep to the radio, which is almost as good.
i've realized that i'm also obsessed with harry potter and trying to make sense of the last six books, in the hopes of figuring out at least a little of what's to come in the seventh and (sadly) final book. i spend a lot of time on this website that's dedicated to the books and movies, reading theories that people have posted. i've also started to reread the books, paying more attention to details within the writing and not just what's going on in the forefront. i think there are a lot of things that i merely skimmed over. i've started taking notes on my readings as well. although, i don't find myself as enthralled with the books as the first time around. the fifth movie comes out in july and i have no idea when the last book will hit the shelves, but i can't wait... well, i hate to see it end, but there's so many things that i can't wait to be answered!
i think part of my obsession with harry potter is that his life is exciting and has a greater purpose. right now, i feel purpose-less. granted, i'm excited for volleyball because i think it will be good for me. give me something legit to worry about. and exercise is always good. but yeah... i miss the way things used to be. i miss feeling important. i miss excitement. i hate feeling so isolated and alone here. i feel as though my life is on hold or something. i'm not where i want to be. but who is? it seems that my whole group of friends is stuck in the same rut. and the whole of us hasn't really done much to help each other. we put on happy faces and try to get along, try to plan fun weekends, but something isn't the same as it used to be. now i'm kinda down, don't want to go to bed, but need to because i have to get up way earlier than usual tomorrow.
i hope you call me soon.
i've gotten to the point where i don't like to go to bed at night anymore. for some reason, i get all freaked out. like i'll run into some evil creature in the dark or something. that, and i don't like where my thoughts go as i lie there, waiting to fall asleep. i used to be able to fall asleep to the tv when i got like this, but the tv in my room isn't hooked up. and my mom doesn't like it when i fall asleep on the couch. but sometimes i just have to because i don't like having nightmares. so lately, i've been falling asleep to the radio, which is almost as good.
i've realized that i'm also obsessed with harry potter and trying to make sense of the last six books, in the hopes of figuring out at least a little of what's to come in the seventh and (sadly) final book. i spend a lot of time on this website that's dedicated to the books and movies, reading theories that people have posted. i've also started to reread the books, paying more attention to details within the writing and not just what's going on in the forefront. i think there are a lot of things that i merely skimmed over. i've started taking notes on my readings as well. although, i don't find myself as enthralled with the books as the first time around. the fifth movie comes out in july and i have no idea when the last book will hit the shelves, but i can't wait... well, i hate to see it end, but there's so many things that i can't wait to be answered!
i think part of my obsession with harry potter is that his life is exciting and has a greater purpose. right now, i feel purpose-less. granted, i'm excited for volleyball because i think it will be good for me. give me something legit to worry about. and exercise is always good. but yeah... i miss the way things used to be. i miss feeling important. i miss excitement. i hate feeling so isolated and alone here. i feel as though my life is on hold or something. i'm not where i want to be. but who is? it seems that my whole group of friends is stuck in the same rut. and the whole of us hasn't really done much to help each other. we put on happy faces and try to get along, try to plan fun weekends, but something isn't the same as it used to be. now i'm kinda down, don't want to go to bed, but need to because i have to get up way earlier than usual tomorrow.
i hope you call me soon.