I know, I know, I'm being bad and posting having still not done my meme posts, but I do promise to eventually do them and quite procrastinating on my procrastinating
( Read more... )
Hi there, it's been a while, and I was wondering how you were doing but it's been so long I wasn't quite sure how to ask. Also, having had to fly away two years ago, I feel sometimes like I won't really be able to connect back.
We all go through times when we feel broken. I think it's harder on you because you only got a chance to be on your own and away from home so recently. For what time you've had, I think you've done well for yourself.
Look, you're obviously a wonderful, warm, caring, fun, unique and lovable person. Otherwise, you wouldn't be bothering about this many people needing you. If you were not any of the above things I mentioned, you wouldn't have these issues because there'd be *no one* around you. The other fact that proves you are all these great things is this: You actually care about what these people think about you. Really and honestly, it is entirely possible to have hangers on and not give a damn about them. You don't want hanger ons, you want friends and you are prepared to be a friend.
The people who hurt you, only want your attention and then give you none don't deserve to call themselves your friend. But you obviously have real ones surrounding you, and they're the ones that matter. I know the world seems to tell us that we have to know as many people as possible, but at the end of the day it's always the quality minority that counts the most, they're the ones who have your back when the going gets rough. That is priceless. It's worth more in the long run, to leave the false ones behind, because they don't deserve you, and you deserve better than this kind of anguish. Remember, there's not enough love in any heart for everyone. And not everyone deserves it. You have to remember to take care of yourself too. Pull back a bit, learn to love yourself, get to the point where even if you were alone in this world you know you can love yourself for all and who you are.
And also, I've never met your boy, but it certainly sounds like he loves you, and you feel the same for him. That's great. I hope that you're not letting guilt over needing him add to the weight on your shoulders. You're obviously there for him as well, and really, people need each other in their world to help prop each other up when the going gets tough. It makes the light parts that much better, :D
I know it's your senior year, and life is stressful, but you're a survivor! Hang in there! I know that you can :)
We all go through times when we feel broken. I think it's harder on you because you only got a chance to be on your own and away from home so recently. For what time you've had, I think you've done well for yourself.
Look, you're obviously a wonderful, warm, caring, fun, unique and lovable person. Otherwise, you wouldn't be bothering about this many people needing you. If you were not any of the above things I mentioned, you wouldn't have these issues because there'd be *no one* around you. The other fact that proves you are all these great things is this: You actually care about what these people think about you. Really and honestly, it is entirely possible to have hangers on and not give a damn about them. You don't want hanger ons, you want friends and you are prepared to be a friend.
The people who hurt you, only want your attention and then give you none don't deserve to call themselves your friend. But you obviously have real ones surrounding you, and they're the ones that matter. I know the world seems to tell us that we have to know as many people as possible, but at the end of the day it's always the quality minority that counts the most, they're the ones who have your back when the going gets rough. That is priceless. It's worth more in the long run, to leave the false ones behind, because they don't deserve you, and you deserve better than this kind of anguish. Remember, there's not enough love in any heart for everyone. And not everyone deserves it. You have to remember to take care of yourself too. Pull back a bit, learn to love yourself, get to the point where even if you were alone in this world you know you can love yourself for all and who you are.
And also, I've never met your boy, but it certainly sounds like he loves you, and you feel the same for him. That's great. I hope that you're not letting guilt over needing him add to the weight on your shoulders. You're obviously there for him as well, and really, people need each other in their world to help prop each other up when the going gets tough. It makes the light parts that much better, :D
I know it's your senior year, and life is stressful, but you're a survivor! Hang in there! I know that you can :)
Reply
Leave a comment