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Sometimes when you tell people the truth, they back off but you don't want them too, you just wanted them to know that certain actions of theirs affect you. But people run into their shell and put on protection layers, then they come out again yet all wrapped up. I know i hold a some grudges without even knowing them. They are nothing but toxins, they constantly need to be released. Its just like yoga. one does it once a day to purify their mind, but cannot expect the purity just to stay there. one has to check it consistently and release or watch themselves from accumulating grudges. just the other day the old man was chasing the seagulls away from the bread that he left for the pigeons. When the seagulls got closer, he would get up from the bench and with his cane and chase them away. I told him that it was mean and unfair. if he wants the pigeons to eat the meal, he needs to make another pile for the seagulls, so they could also eat without hungrily staring at the pile left for the pigeons. He said that it wasn't for them, thats why they shouldn't have it. I told him it was like separating 2 groups of starving children and letting only group eat while the other group watches. He was old and did not seem to agree with me.. I moved away, to stop from being excessively stirred up by him at 7 am Wednesday morning. the bus comes and i get on it. I sit next to the window with a pouty face, so he knows i am still upset about it and that our connection will never be the same, but i catch myself as i think of someone doing that to me because they disagreed with me and imagine pain and unfairness that i would feel over that occasion. i decide to let it go and try hardest not to hold on to grudges for the sake of proving my point.