hangin out...downtown by myself
I don't get it...all I wanted to do was ask you to a party...not even a party...a get-together.... and it turns into a big deal. That's the thing though...it's not a big deal... really isn't. Nothing crazy would happen...nothing...I don't know...whatever...I'm not mad, I just don't understand...and I guess Inever will...I don't know. Sorry I add crap to your life, but I really don't...you just choose for it to be more crap than it really is. I'm not saying that in anger... I'm just saying it I guess... I don't know. Sorry I add to your stress... sorry I drain you emotionally... sorry for everything else. I wish you'd go.... but hey, if it's not worth the 5 minutes in the car...then it's just not worth it I guess. That's fine... your decision and I respect that. And promise I'm not mad... I P-R-O-M-I-S-E hehe..see, I even spelled it out... :0)... I'm just gonna go and have fun with my friends and I wish you were there too...and the invitation's still open...and ifyou're uncomfortable....then just don't make a big deal out of it...just say you are and go... no freaking out...no big deal...just "Hey, I think I'm gonna head outta here now". but it's up to you...I guess I'll see ou if I see you...but I'm having fun...regardless....not in a bad way....I'm just saying. I hope I see you. hahaha....wow...this was a rea llygood email... too bad it's a journal entry...eih, my journal....and if you see me you can't be mad at me for anything I've already done...cuz...well, yeah... that'd just be against the rules. eih...whatever...I'm out. I hope you feel better... just don't be so hard on yourself...but in turn, don't be hard on other people either... that's my advice for and from myself... just breath deep and let it go.