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Not to sound conceited or anything... but "Obsessed" by Mariah Carey is like the story of my life right now. Why in the hell am I listening to Mariah Carey? Especially since I actually pulled out my Smile Empty Soul mix the other day. Forgot how much I love them...
Speaking of that time period (strange transition, I know)... I had a dream the other night that I made up with Marissa. Not Erin (because my subconscious knows that I'm on all-right terms with her when it comes down to it, I guess), but Marissa. I think we were in her kitchen or she showed up at a party I was at or something (and Erin happened to be there already, actually), and she just hugged the shit out of me and we were okay. No big discussion or anything, but we were okay. It's weird because I feel like I'm on terrible terms with her, and I'm obviously at fault. It still bothers me sometimes, though I'm not sure. Is it weird that I still think about the lot of them on occasion? I miss the crap out of everybody from Rocky Hill a lot of the time, but I can't bring myself to contact anyone. Especially because all I expect is hostility. So many things have changed, in my life and theirs (I assume from the myspace and facebook and [rarely] livejournal stuff I glance at) and everything would just be so different.
I do wonder if any of 'em think of me. In positive or negative manners. It's not my concern, I guess. But I think about it.
Being left hanging like this sucks. But, if I recall correctly, that was my fault too.
huh.
Speaking of that time period (strange transition, I know)... I had a dream the other night that I made up with Marissa. Not Erin (because my subconscious knows that I'm on all-right terms with her when it comes down to it, I guess), but Marissa. I think we were in her kitchen or she showed up at a party I was at or something (and Erin happened to be there already, actually), and she just hugged the shit out of me and we were okay. No big discussion or anything, but we were okay. It's weird because I feel like I'm on terrible terms with her, and I'm obviously at fault. It still bothers me sometimes, though I'm not sure. Is it weird that I still think about the lot of them on occasion? I miss the crap out of everybody from Rocky Hill a lot of the time, but I can't bring myself to contact anyone. Especially because all I expect is hostility. So many things have changed, in my life and theirs (I assume from the myspace and facebook and [rarely] livejournal stuff I glance at) and everything would just be so different.
I do wonder if any of 'em think of me. In positive or negative manners. It's not my concern, I guess. But I think about it.
Being left hanging like this sucks. But, if I recall correctly, that was my fault too.
huh.