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ok *sigh* so something is seriously wrong with me or those tests are boogus. either way it isn't good. im hoping that from my tone you can tell that the test i took came back negative. but i still have no answer for why i haven't menstrated in like 4 months. and im worried. i mean ok i can understand 1 month maybe 2 but 4!!! ok now thats weird. that has never happened to me and thats because before patrick i was very irregular but i never went this long. yeah i know this is the last thing you want to hear about... a woman and her rag!!! lol sorry. ok ok so
i am so fucking tired its not even funny. i've had 16 hours sleep all week and i can't find the energy to work. i keep nodding off and i can't focus. i hate this shit i hate feeling like this. i am so drained. i really really really hope that i can get some sleep tomorrow. the kids have been sick, mainly jake. so he hasn't been wanting to be put down so all the unpacking and running after patrick has to be done with him on my hip. i have just been feeling so overwhelmed. *sigh* so work becomes my get away again. and my bro... well thats another subject all together.
ok so my brother is all moved in with his gf. they are all unpacked and everything (of course keep in mind that all his possesions include nothing but what goes in his room). now ask me how helpful he is to everyone else who has a job? ask me how many times he has offered to help with unpacking, if nothing else, my moms shit (which is all small, breakable, glass shit that i insist should be donated or thrown). not once. he has no job. he has no kids (during the week). and what does he do... who the hell knows!! i know he doesn't help and i dont see him at all when i get home. he doesn't offer to help move the heavy boxes, oh no why, what for let the old lady and the woman with a baby on her hip deal with it right? its not your shit. but you can make a mess with dishes that you can't wash. you can smoke your pot and cigs without missing one little "break". what he is taking a break from, i have no idea. maybe lifting the remote control is hard work. yeah that has to be it. so yeah! that is my frustration right there. i've said it before and ill say it again... HE IS THE MOST SELF CENTERED PERSON I HAVE EVER KNOWN!!!
i am so fucking tired its not even funny. i've had 16 hours sleep all week and i can't find the energy to work. i keep nodding off and i can't focus. i hate this shit i hate feeling like this. i am so drained. i really really really hope that i can get some sleep tomorrow. the kids have been sick, mainly jake. so he hasn't been wanting to be put down so all the unpacking and running after patrick has to be done with him on my hip. i have just been feeling so overwhelmed. *sigh* so work becomes my get away again. and my bro... well thats another subject all together.
ok so my brother is all moved in with his gf. they are all unpacked and everything (of course keep in mind that all his possesions include nothing but what goes in his room). now ask me how helpful he is to everyone else who has a job? ask me how many times he has offered to help with unpacking, if nothing else, my moms shit (which is all small, breakable, glass shit that i insist should be donated or thrown). not once. he has no job. he has no kids (during the week). and what does he do... who the hell knows!! i know he doesn't help and i dont see him at all when i get home. he doesn't offer to help move the heavy boxes, oh no why, what for let the old lady and the woman with a baby on her hip deal with it right? its not your shit. but you can make a mess with dishes that you can't wash. you can smoke your pot and cigs without missing one little "break". what he is taking a break from, i have no idea. maybe lifting the remote control is hard work. yeah that has to be it. so yeah! that is my frustration right there. i've said it before and ill say it again... HE IS THE MOST SELF CENTERED PERSON I HAVE EVER KNOWN!!!