beliefs confused
I've already strooled to the store, bought my morning cup of Middle Easter Version of coffee,...I have this ritual or compulsive need to buy a bag of chips every morning, today it was oatmeal cookies and then pack them away once I get home just like a conservative liitle squirrel in the winter time. Lets face it,...the future holds no security and I'm not the type to stand in line for handouts.I've been doing this for the past ,.....month or when ever I'm in town I'll do it,..Right now My goal is to have a whole winery of garbanzo beans in the garage,actually an assortment of various beans stuffed in corked and secured in wine bottles,..Aside from all that , I'm slightly confused about my spiritual essence for the first time.I thought I had it right, but I feel our minds are so bombarded with untruths and uncertain philosophies its hard to weed out what is truthful out there. People procalim the bible holds the absolute truth and it shouldnt be ever questioned. Having taken courses in college of the History of Christianity and discovering how the Bible was comprised by a select panel of Rabi's or council members which excluded many scriptures and formed the bible to a certain degree of control mind set in my opinion, it's hard for me to take the bible literally.
Jesus the Savior has always been difficult for me to accept , I believe a divine figure of hime surely once lived, but I find it difficult to believe he is the son of the Supreme creaor of the cosmos.I strongly believe there is life scattered all through out the universe and we arent the only centered lucky ones that occupy this vast galaxy for Gods personal intentions to work with. So believing that I automatically eliminate that we are alone and are that special for the creator of the universe brought us a savior just for special little old us and said to hell with the rest of the universe.I do believe Jesus came to share wisdom and i have no problems at all with his teachings i actually i find them to be very spiritually enlightening for a higher conscious purpose.
Having my own encounters with E.T.s of strange sorts puts alot of questions as to we arent alone and life doesnt only exist here on planet earth. Lately I've come to think that most alien abductions are from aggresive type species, can these be the ones the elders referred to as demons?....And then I began to wonder do they only pray on those who are weak in a strong faith of hope and security that is endowed by strong convictions to the holy divinity. Since dismantling my beliefs systems that was once a stong security of empowerment attrbuted by the Bible i find myself,.................wavering in the wind and can only at time count on myself for strong spiritual strength,....Ive almost strayed away from God ,but not entirely,.....Im just so confused with the Whole jesus factor........I think certain entities eat off the fear of my kundalini spasms.Before i would have this strong impenetratable wall of security. now its slightly broken.......I believe I am a slither of God Consciousness and have to get back there,.....I think confusion with so many conspiracies out there has dilluded my spiritual oneness,.....
I just know in my heart that God the creators conscience is the only way to prevail through such encounters.
times are difficult.
Jesus the Savior has always been difficult for me to accept , I believe a divine figure of hime surely once lived, but I find it difficult to believe he is the son of the Supreme creaor of the cosmos.I strongly believe there is life scattered all through out the universe and we arent the only centered lucky ones that occupy this vast galaxy for Gods personal intentions to work with. So believing that I automatically eliminate that we are alone and are that special for the creator of the universe brought us a savior just for special little old us and said to hell with the rest of the universe.I do believe Jesus came to share wisdom and i have no problems at all with his teachings i actually i find them to be very spiritually enlightening for a higher conscious purpose.
Having my own encounters with E.T.s of strange sorts puts alot of questions as to we arent alone and life doesnt only exist here on planet earth. Lately I've come to think that most alien abductions are from aggresive type species, can these be the ones the elders referred to as demons?....And then I began to wonder do they only pray on those who are weak in a strong faith of hope and security that is endowed by strong convictions to the holy divinity. Since dismantling my beliefs systems that was once a stong security of empowerment attrbuted by the Bible i find myself,.................wavering in the wind and can only at time count on myself for strong spiritual strength,....Ive almost strayed away from God ,but not entirely,.....Im just so confused with the Whole jesus factor........I think certain entities eat off the fear of my kundalini spasms.Before i would have this strong impenetratable wall of security. now its slightly broken.......I believe I am a slither of God Consciousness and have to get back there,.....I think confusion with so many conspiracies out there has dilluded my spiritual oneness,.....
I just know in my heart that God the creators conscience is the only way to prevail through such encounters.
times are difficult.