My wandering soul....found solace at last....
So I found out today an accquaintance of mine whom I didn't know very well committed suicide on the 10th of last month. Even though I didn't know him well, I still find myself wondering if there was anything I could have done in the short time I did know him (I met him at a Halloween party at a friend's house last October) that might have changed anything. I know realistically there wouldn't have been much if anything I could have done, but I can't help but wonder. I don't know that there's anyone who's had someone commit suicide that they know, however well or not, that doesn't wonder this.
So his family and friends are left wondering: Why? The same as I am, and maybe if I knew him better, I'd be able to help answer that. I regret I didn't take the time to get to know him better, but how many people in our friends lists here are casual accquaintences we've messaged off and on a few times without really taking the time to get to know them at all? The reality is Myspace promotes the concept of social networking for people to have these huge number of friends, many of whom they don't know or don't know very well at all.
So it's depressing to think this young acquaintance of mine who I knew barely well enough to call that, whom seemed like a nice and friendly guy was going through such issues and problems that he felt this was the only way to handle and deal with them. This isn't the first time I've had this happen to someone I know, and it probably won't be the last. Every time, I ask myself: Was there something I could have done or said that might have changed things? Could I have done something differently that would have made a difference? Idle speculation and moot points after the fact, all. Doesn't help and doesn't make a difference, but I wonder none-the-less.
So...having said all that....I want anyone in my friends list, regardless of how well I know you or not to know this: If you have any problems or issues or whatever you may be dealing with that seems to be too much, I'm offering now to be a sounding board. Regardless how bleak or depressing or hopeless things appear to you, someone cares. Your family, friends, neighbors, co-workers, etc. They defintiely care about you, and would definitely be worse for your absence if you're thinking of sucicide for whatever reason.
If you have any issues in your life you feel you don't have someone who would understand or accept or care or whatever, know that someone out there does. Please, please please, regardless of how well we know one another, reach out to SOMEONE. If you feel you don't have anyone, I'll be that someone if it prevents me from writing another post like this down the road for someone I knew better than I did my friend today. Just reach out, I'll be here.
So his family and friends are left wondering: Why? The same as I am, and maybe if I knew him better, I'd be able to help answer that. I regret I didn't take the time to get to know him better, but how many people in our friends lists here are casual accquaintences we've messaged off and on a few times without really taking the time to get to know them at all? The reality is Myspace promotes the concept of social networking for people to have these huge number of friends, many of whom they don't know or don't know very well at all.
So it's depressing to think this young acquaintance of mine who I knew barely well enough to call that, whom seemed like a nice and friendly guy was going through such issues and problems that he felt this was the only way to handle and deal with them. This isn't the first time I've had this happen to someone I know, and it probably won't be the last. Every time, I ask myself: Was there something I could have done or said that might have changed things? Could I have done something differently that would have made a difference? Idle speculation and moot points after the fact, all. Doesn't help and doesn't make a difference, but I wonder none-the-less.
So...having said all that....I want anyone in my friends list, regardless of how well I know you or not to know this: If you have any problems or issues or whatever you may be dealing with that seems to be too much, I'm offering now to be a sounding board. Regardless how bleak or depressing or hopeless things appear to you, someone cares. Your family, friends, neighbors, co-workers, etc. They defintiely care about you, and would definitely be worse for your absence if you're thinking of sucicide for whatever reason.
If you have any issues in your life you feel you don't have someone who would understand or accept or care or whatever, know that someone out there does. Please, please please, regardless of how well we know one another, reach out to SOMEONE. If you feel you don't have anyone, I'll be that someone if it prevents me from writing another post like this down the road for someone I knew better than I did my friend today. Just reach out, I'll be here.