mostly today
Today has kind of just sucked. I met up with a friend and things just didnt go right at all, and so I was down all day. I overreacted to not being able to talk longer with this friend and got them creaped out. I watched Its a Wonderful Life tonight and can connect with it even better now... and am wondering what the world would be like without me again. It seems like I am losing some of the people I hold clossest to me, that they dont view me as a good friend anymore. I just dont know what to do anymore. I am so confused and lost with everything. I just want to yell out and destroy something because I dont understand. I know I am just complaining alot and there is no cohesion to this whatsoever, but I dont care. I may come back and write another entry that is more organized.