Meditations...
Must get a few thoughts out of my head about people and myself.
It's funny watching people and how they behave in different situations sometimes, and it's given me pause for these thoughts. I find it amusing when people talk about humanity as if we're anything more than animals, suggest that nature is to be left alone and that we shouldn't kill or eat other animals, purely because we have cognitive reasoning of a different variety to those animal brains with which we're familiar. One of the strange things about this is that it's entirely illogical, as human beings are naturally omnivorous and benefit from animal proteins. Just think of any vegetarian on vitamin supplements to replace their meat intake. There's also no ethical question, beyond the nature of the killing, as humans have evolved tools to kill extremely efficiently, more so than any other predatory creature. Ethical dilemmas of this variety are a particularly human curiosity.
The reason I'm making this point is to show how absurd mankind's attempts to differentiate itself from other animals are when we see the way our societies operate and function. We are so similar to animals in the way we group. We nurture our injured as do some pack animals and herbivorous herd animals. It reminds me a lot of wildebeest being stalked, circling around the young and the old and infirm members of the herd. The only difference however, is that humans face emotional injury in a way we don't understand other animals to be capable of, and that is what prompts these observations.
What I find, however, is that I don't feel involved in this. I tend to watch, to observe, but to avoid such interaction, such tribalism, as much as possible, as I want to keep my head clear, to be able to objectively assess facts and make the best possible decisions, coldly and efficiently. As such, I find I lack human warmth most of the time. I'm the guy people come to for lifts home, when they're in trouble and need a dig-out. When things are sorted out, I'm in the background until the next time I'm needed, and I do this well. I'm a functional tool; I do a job, and then I wait for the next job. I'm uneasy when I'm not doing something. I would like to have that human warmth, on one level, but it would cloud my objectivity and efficiency, and I treasure that. I can't help but feel that this will continue for me; I'll always be waiting for the next job. The only thing that remains to be seen is whether I then treasure my time free, or whether I'm just ill at ease in society, with all its vices and things that are strange and worrying for me. We'll see I guess.
It's funny watching people and how they behave in different situations sometimes, and it's given me pause for these thoughts. I find it amusing when people talk about humanity as if we're anything more than animals, suggest that nature is to be left alone and that we shouldn't kill or eat other animals, purely because we have cognitive reasoning of a different variety to those animal brains with which we're familiar. One of the strange things about this is that it's entirely illogical, as human beings are naturally omnivorous and benefit from animal proteins. Just think of any vegetarian on vitamin supplements to replace their meat intake. There's also no ethical question, beyond the nature of the killing, as humans have evolved tools to kill extremely efficiently, more so than any other predatory creature. Ethical dilemmas of this variety are a particularly human curiosity.
The reason I'm making this point is to show how absurd mankind's attempts to differentiate itself from other animals are when we see the way our societies operate and function. We are so similar to animals in the way we group. We nurture our injured as do some pack animals and herbivorous herd animals. It reminds me a lot of wildebeest being stalked, circling around the young and the old and infirm members of the herd. The only difference however, is that humans face emotional injury in a way we don't understand other animals to be capable of, and that is what prompts these observations.
What I find, however, is that I don't feel involved in this. I tend to watch, to observe, but to avoid such interaction, such tribalism, as much as possible, as I want to keep my head clear, to be able to objectively assess facts and make the best possible decisions, coldly and efficiently. As such, I find I lack human warmth most of the time. I'm the guy people come to for lifts home, when they're in trouble and need a dig-out. When things are sorted out, I'm in the background until the next time I'm needed, and I do this well. I'm a functional tool; I do a job, and then I wait for the next job. I'm uneasy when I'm not doing something. I would like to have that human warmth, on one level, but it would cloud my objectivity and efficiency, and I treasure that. I can't help but feel that this will continue for me; I'll always be waiting for the next job. The only thing that remains to be seen is whether I then treasure my time free, or whether I'm just ill at ease in society, with all its vices and things that are strange and worrying for me. We'll see I guess.