Letter
My friend was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor (not like the one Sen Kennedy has) however, I have recently learned that she will NOT undergo treatment. One person I used to talk to basically told me that she faked our whole friendship - but what made it feel the worst was when she told me that every time I loved her she never really loved me back.
I have decided not to pour my heart out to my friends, for they support me enough. In lieu, I have turned to a place I rarely do...
Dear God,
My beliefs on life vary day by day, and even hour by hour - it's no secret that the mood changes. But sometimes I get lost, and I wish I could be someone else. While watching TV I realized I wish I could have those good looks and be the guy who has all the girls wanting him, but only to have a different reason to affirm his love for the pretty girl he does wind up with. I believe that people around me just don't care anymore, and the apathy that has run rampant is overwhelming. Therefore I tend to dump problems on the few people that I do love, and the one I am in love with tends to also take a big hit of the pressure I put on her.
Dear God
I don't ask for much, not from you not from anyone. In terms of money, I don't NEED much, when I get a job I hope I have enough to give my wife what she wants/needs, so she can be happy. I want to make sure she is comfortable. I won't need much more than food, water, electricity, internet but I can deal without any of those, I just want to be loved. That is my ultimate desire. It bothers me that I am so desiring what I do have right before me.
Dear God
Please tell me that the friends I do have are true and that they won't stab my back. The ones who I can talk to will forever lend me their ear. While I know in the depths of my heart it is unrealistic to expect our whole group to stay together forever, please let me keep the individual relationships. I want to be happy and as someone told me the other day...the day I will stop being so volatile will be the day I have a family. However, I think I am very down to Earth, and my mental health is very important to me.
Dear God
I know you've taken family from me on different levels, both biological and the ones I've intimately known. I want my dad to know that I love him very much, and I do tell him. While Jane is not my mother I do love her for what she does for us as a family. I love my step-brother and I look up to him very much. Chase and Sawyer will become great men one day, I can tell. I will teach them what it is to be a real man. A real man holds the door open for the girl, holds her hand or the umbrella on a rainy day. A real man is the one who listens and can be happy himself while pleasing others.
Dear God
I neglect you as often as I think of you, and I worry about it. I fear that my life is evil. However, I do not have impure thoughts, I am loyal, I am honest and I am trustworthy. I do not lie, cheat or steal. Should I use my words to say something that is untrue then it is justified through the fact that I always try to do the greatest good for the greatest number of people.
Dear God
I have tried to do it alone and I cannot, but I thank you for putting people around me who I can both help and who can help me.
Dear God
When I break down, thank you for sending me my angel every time.
I have decided not to pour my heart out to my friends, for they support me enough. In lieu, I have turned to a place I rarely do...
Dear God,
My beliefs on life vary day by day, and even hour by hour - it's no secret that the mood changes. But sometimes I get lost, and I wish I could be someone else. While watching TV I realized I wish I could have those good looks and be the guy who has all the girls wanting him, but only to have a different reason to affirm his love for the pretty girl he does wind up with. I believe that people around me just don't care anymore, and the apathy that has run rampant is overwhelming. Therefore I tend to dump problems on the few people that I do love, and the one I am in love with tends to also take a big hit of the pressure I put on her.
Dear God
I don't ask for much, not from you not from anyone. In terms of money, I don't NEED much, when I get a job I hope I have enough to give my wife what she wants/needs, so she can be happy. I want to make sure she is comfortable. I won't need much more than food, water, electricity, internet but I can deal without any of those, I just want to be loved. That is my ultimate desire. It bothers me that I am so desiring what I do have right before me.
Dear God
Please tell me that the friends I do have are true and that they won't stab my back. The ones who I can talk to will forever lend me their ear. While I know in the depths of my heart it is unrealistic to expect our whole group to stay together forever, please let me keep the individual relationships. I want to be happy and as someone told me the other day...the day I will stop being so volatile will be the day I have a family. However, I think I am very down to Earth, and my mental health is very important to me.
Dear God
I know you've taken family from me on different levels, both biological and the ones I've intimately known. I want my dad to know that I love him very much, and I do tell him. While Jane is not my mother I do love her for what she does for us as a family. I love my step-brother and I look up to him very much. Chase and Sawyer will become great men one day, I can tell. I will teach them what it is to be a real man. A real man holds the door open for the girl, holds her hand or the umbrella on a rainy day. A real man is the one who listens and can be happy himself while pleasing others.
Dear God
I neglect you as often as I think of you, and I worry about it. I fear that my life is evil. However, I do not have impure thoughts, I am loyal, I am honest and I am trustworthy. I do not lie, cheat or steal. Should I use my words to say something that is untrue then it is justified through the fact that I always try to do the greatest good for the greatest number of people.
Dear God
I have tried to do it alone and I cannot, but I thank you for putting people around me who I can both help and who can help me.
Dear God
When I break down, thank you for sending me my angel every time.