Forgot to mention for everyone else online
Since my tumblr's dead from overload from the mere 24 people I'm following, I'll update here and hope all the relevant internet friends get to see it.
I'm trying to finish up my last bunch of classes so I can graduate from college with my degree this year, but it's looking even less likely than my chances of finding a significant other who will hang around for more than 3 months before leaving me, especially what with the cancer that came back.
Surgery's the 16th of this month, after my fall finals, and everyone's very optimistic besides me.
I'm just waiting to have to get used to an even deader facial nerve than the one they fscked up last time. At least they're going to avoid cutting the muscle control nerve. I'm not exactly gorgeous to begin with, so a lopsided smile would hardly help.
I'm handling it better than last time so far, but hell, last time I was fine until after the surgery, and mostly fine until the shock wore off 6 months later. So I'm mostly just carrying on as usual as much as I possibly can; reading, listening to music, sometimes playing games (though that's oddly lost much of its appeal), and sleeping a lot (though mostly during the day, and staying insomniac through the night for much of the past month since the news).
I won't say I'm not depressed, but if I am, it's more apathy than true ball-and-chain/black-hole depression that I'm used to.
Wish me luck, because I could always use it, and I'll do my best to be around to talk to anyone who wants to for the next 2 weeks (when I'm not trying to work on all the schoolwork I don't currently give much of a damn about) and whenever I'm conscious and can sit up after.
I'm trying to finish up my last bunch of classes so I can graduate from college with my degree this year, but it's looking even less likely than my chances of finding a significant other who will hang around for more than 3 months before leaving me, especially what with the cancer that came back.
Surgery's the 16th of this month, after my fall finals, and everyone's very optimistic besides me.
I'm just waiting to have to get used to an even deader facial nerve than the one they fscked up last time. At least they're going to avoid cutting the muscle control nerve. I'm not exactly gorgeous to begin with, so a lopsided smile would hardly help.
I'm handling it better than last time so far, but hell, last time I was fine until after the surgery, and mostly fine until the shock wore off 6 months later. So I'm mostly just carrying on as usual as much as I possibly can; reading, listening to music, sometimes playing games (though that's oddly lost much of its appeal), and sleeping a lot (though mostly during the day, and staying insomniac through the night for much of the past month since the news).
I won't say I'm not depressed, but if I am, it's more apathy than true ball-and-chain/black-hole depression that I'm used to.
Wish me luck, because I could always use it, and I'll do my best to be around to talk to anyone who wants to for the next 2 weeks (when I'm not trying to work on all the schoolwork I don't currently give much of a damn about) and whenever I'm conscious and can sit up after.