things
today i sit on my mother's computer, because of a few reasons. the first being due to hurricane ike's wrath, we're without electricity at the trailer, been that way since 12am this morning. and the NYSEG line says won't be fixed til tomorrow night around 11:59pm. the second and BIGGEST reason is ed is such a WONDERFUL man that he told me to leave, (again). i was sitting in church yesterday morning when i got an e-mail that came right to my phone from him saying we needed to talk. so i sent him a text saying about what? he sent back one that said about our future. i responded, unless this is about addison, there is no future. well he didn't like that so much! so nasty text after nasty text i am again forced to live with my parents. but it doesn't end here, he accused me of being with 4 men this year, questioned my commitment to scott, said all i do is bitch and WORST OF ALL.... addison's not his. imagine that????!!! well needless to say, this pinball game sierra and i are living is ridiculous! can't seem to live anywhere for longer than 6 months. i am trying to be positive, but with all of this constant moving, fighting, arguing, feeling helpless and hopeless, there's kinda a VERY BIG monster staring me in the face telling me things will NEVER get any better. so again, i am one step forward and TEN steps back. i can only hope things get better for me and VERY soon.