my head...
my head is so fucked up!!!!! i wish i could get in there, root around and clean the shit out of it!!! the negativity, the mistrust, the insecurities, the issues, the jealousy, the anger, and mostly the stupidity. these things haunt me daily!!! i can't figure out why.... where it all came from, and how come i can't rid myself of it all. i have tried meditation, reading love smart (dr.phil) and the secret over and over again. to no avail. i do know i need the negative energy out!! it's going to cost me my relationship, my sanity and possibly a new GREAT paying job! i wish i knew the cause of this head shit... who started it, when it started... instead i am plagued by an invisible ghost. this ghost consumes my every thought. is it from bad relationships with men??? poor self-esteem, misery from being at my parents house when i wanna be independent?? unfortunately i can only think it's from all of the above. but the question is.. how do i rid myself of it??? suggestions would be nice, but no one but me sees my private pain, frustration and anger.