My Plea For Help
Hey Everyone,
Ok so I finally got my Honours mark, Second class Div A ... which is like getting a B! Yeah its a decent mark but its not what I wanted. I busted my ass off for a first class and still only got a second class. I always thought I was destined for something greater but maybe I just have to admit I am average. I mean in high school I finished year 12 with straight B's and my honours is essentially a B ... I'm B-grade. I know this sounds depressive but I think I need to accept it! I'm not going to be like Jane Goodall, only about one in a billion gets to be amazing for some thing small.
Anyway I'm not trying to be all sad and pathetic "poor me" ... there is a point to this.
I was planning to do a PhD and I should be able to get a scholarship so its pretty much a descission of if I want to do it and think I am up to it. Thats where I'm struggling, I've done pros and cons lists, I thought and thought and thought and I decided to apply and do it. Now this morning i went to see my potential supervisor and she did the whole "this is a big deal, three years full on, no life other then the PhD, ect." ...this full on freaked me out. I have been in tears on and off all day. This is a really big deal. My life for the next THREE YEARS!!!
All I get when I talk to my friends and family is "It's your descission" and "only you know if you're up to it" but i struggle enough with simple descissions! I essentially have until the end of the month to decide ... preferably sooner. I'm full on freaking out! Has anyone out there done a PhD? Any ideas on how I should decide?
HELP ME PLEASE!!!!!!!!!
Dash
Ok so I finally got my Honours mark, Second class Div A ... which is like getting a B! Yeah its a decent mark but its not what I wanted. I busted my ass off for a first class and still only got a second class. I always thought I was destined for something greater but maybe I just have to admit I am average. I mean in high school I finished year 12 with straight B's and my honours is essentially a B ... I'm B-grade. I know this sounds depressive but I think I need to accept it! I'm not going to be like Jane Goodall, only about one in a billion gets to be amazing for some thing small.
Anyway I'm not trying to be all sad and pathetic "poor me" ... there is a point to this.
I was planning to do a PhD and I should be able to get a scholarship so its pretty much a descission of if I want to do it and think I am up to it. Thats where I'm struggling, I've done pros and cons lists, I thought and thought and thought and I decided to apply and do it. Now this morning i went to see my potential supervisor and she did the whole "this is a big deal, three years full on, no life other then the PhD, ect." ...this full on freaked me out. I have been in tears on and off all day. This is a really big deal. My life for the next THREE YEARS!!!
All I get when I talk to my friends and family is "It's your descission" and "only you know if you're up to it" but i struggle enough with simple descissions! I essentially have until the end of the month to decide ... preferably sooner. I'm full on freaking out! Has anyone out there done a PhD? Any ideas on how I should decide?
HELP ME PLEASE!!!!!!!!!
Dash