Thank you Stranger, for your therapeutic smile.
TODAY:::But everything seemed different and completely new to me.The sky, the trees, houses, buildings, even my own body.And each person I encountered, I couldn't wait to meet.
Today im in a very good mood,and I like it,nothing can bother me cause ive excepted it all,atleast for now:).
And whoa do I love bright eyes,Conner boof me.Last night was awesome (soccer was ok) anywho I sat w/ my mom and watched the Real World,amazing me and her got along,made me smile.Anywho Kristen met a guy she really likes and im so happy for her,because she actually cares..its not all physical..thats so great for her,im sooo glad!:)!He's been picking her up everynight (sneak out)...he brought her to the beach the other night,and sat with her and talk on a life guard stand...how romantic...shes one lucky gal,its sweet.
I just made eggs/cheese!It was really good,im a chef man!:)!Food channel style and everything.
Friday Sam wants me to go to his show in boca and he said he will pick me up,so I dunno,only if rolby can get picked up too,if not...forget it because I never see him and really just need to.Josh has been working alot and burning himself out,hope everything works out:)!
My backyard is like a swimming pool,the sprinklers are all messed up,hehe its alll water now.Oh Oh Oh I might see Shelbs on sat. at RiverFront :) whoa im glad I miss her.
>Barbs I miss you too sweetie!!!You and Shayne good?
>ugh I broke out!I hate it,or its prob from JP and them smoking,everytime im around weed it breaks me out,hehe its so gay.Whatever,ill deal.
Nothing new except my outlook on everything and how im trying to change the way I take things in,I wonna be happyer and ive been positive latly..which makes me happy!:)!
One down side I feel like he dosnt want any of his friends to know were going back out,his best friend didnt even know,whatever im done worrying about it:im ok etha way.
I hope to go to school tomorrow,wait no I will....I miss you ALLLLLL!!!!& love you!!!!!!
Beach this sunday I hope!!!
So that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone.And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.But when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself.It is best to compose a poem, an honest longing or simple song of hope.That is why I'm singing...Baby don't worry cause now I got your back. And every time you feel like crying,
I'm gonna try and make you laugh. And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad,then we will wait for it to pass and I will keep you company through those days so long and black.And we'll just keep working on the problem ..
hehe im in the best mood!!!
Whoa so im editing this entry because im crazy and my mood just dropped,fucking weird.I heard this song,and everything fell.~~~~>>
Nothing Gets Crossed Out
The future has got me worried, such awful thoughts. My head is a carousel of pictures. The spinning never stops. I just want someone to walk in front and I'll follow the leader. Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush. I started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs. I almost forgot who I was, but came to my senses. Now I try to be assertive. I'm making plans. I want to rise to the occasion, yeah, meet all of their demands. But all I do is just lay in bed and hide under the covers. I know I should be brave but I'm just afraid of all this change.
It's hard to focus through all this doubt. I keep making "To Do" lists but nothing ever gets crossed out. Even working on the record seems pointless now. When the world ends, who's gonna hear it? But I try and take some comfort in written words, yeah Tim I heard your album and it's better than good. When you get off tour I think we should hang and black out together. Because I've been feeling sentimental for days gone by...all those summers singing, drinking, laughing, wasting out time. Remember all those songs and the way we smiled in those basements made of music. But now I've got to crawl to get anywhere at all. I'm not as strong as I thought.
So when I'm lost in a crows, I hope that you'll pick me out. Oh, how I long to be found. The grass grew high. I laid down. Now, wait for a hand to lift me up, help me stand. I have been laying so low don't want to lay here no more. I But if everything that happens is supposed to be and it is predetermined, you can't change your destiny. Then I guess I'll just keep moving and someday, maybe, I'll get to where I'm going.
-amazing song tho,fucking really the best!
whatever...give me 5min and ill be smiling again.
Sam call me about the show and ill tell you whats up.Love ya boy,mwah!-Lates,xoxo!
"Return, return to the person that you were. And I will do the same because it is too hard to belong to someone who is gone. My compass spins. The wilderness remains. Once too often, I have retreated into the depths of my despair. I built a barricade to block you on the road. But standing there with all of my possessions, piled higher than a house, I felt closer to you than you ever could have known" -please return!
Today im in a very good mood,and I like it,nothing can bother me cause ive excepted it all,atleast for now:).
And whoa do I love bright eyes,Conner boof me.Last night was awesome (soccer was ok) anywho I sat w/ my mom and watched the Real World,amazing me and her got along,made me smile.Anywho Kristen met a guy she really likes and im so happy for her,because she actually cares..its not all physical..thats so great for her,im sooo glad!:)!He's been picking her up everynight (sneak out)...he brought her to the beach the other night,and sat with her and talk on a life guard stand...how romantic...shes one lucky gal,its sweet.
I just made eggs/cheese!It was really good,im a chef man!:)!Food channel style and everything.
Friday Sam wants me to go to his show in boca and he said he will pick me up,so I dunno,only if rolby can get picked up too,if not...forget it because I never see him and really just need to.Josh has been working alot and burning himself out,hope everything works out:)!
My backyard is like a swimming pool,the sprinklers are all messed up,hehe its alll water now.Oh Oh Oh I might see Shelbs on sat. at RiverFront :) whoa im glad I miss her.
>Barbs I miss you too sweetie!!!You and Shayne good?
>ugh I broke out!I hate it,or its prob from JP and them smoking,everytime im around weed it breaks me out,hehe its so gay.Whatever,ill deal.
Nothing new except my outlook on everything and how im trying to change the way I take things in,I wonna be happyer and ive been positive latly..which makes me happy!:)!
One down side I feel like he dosnt want any of his friends to know were going back out,his best friend didnt even know,whatever im done worrying about it:im ok etha way.
I hope to go to school tomorrow,wait no I will....I miss you ALLLLLL!!!!& love you!!!!!!
Beach this sunday I hope!!!
So that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone.And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.But when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself.It is best to compose a poem, an honest longing or simple song of hope.That is why I'm singing...Baby don't worry cause now I got your back. And every time you feel like crying,
I'm gonna try and make you laugh. And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad,then we will wait for it to pass and I will keep you company through those days so long and black.And we'll just keep working on the problem ..
hehe im in the best mood!!!
Whoa so im editing this entry because im crazy and my mood just dropped,fucking weird.I heard this song,and everything fell.~~~~>>
Nothing Gets Crossed Out
The future has got me worried, such awful thoughts. My head is a carousel of pictures. The spinning never stops. I just want someone to walk in front and I'll follow the leader. Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush. I started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs. I almost forgot who I was, but came to my senses. Now I try to be assertive. I'm making plans. I want to rise to the occasion, yeah, meet all of their demands. But all I do is just lay in bed and hide under the covers. I know I should be brave but I'm just afraid of all this change.
It's hard to focus through all this doubt. I keep making "To Do" lists but nothing ever gets crossed out. Even working on the record seems pointless now. When the world ends, who's gonna hear it? But I try and take some comfort in written words, yeah Tim I heard your album and it's better than good. When you get off tour I think we should hang and black out together. Because I've been feeling sentimental for days gone by...all those summers singing, drinking, laughing, wasting out time. Remember all those songs and the way we smiled in those basements made of music. But now I've got to crawl to get anywhere at all. I'm not as strong as I thought.
So when I'm lost in a crows, I hope that you'll pick me out. Oh, how I long to be found. The grass grew high. I laid down. Now, wait for a hand to lift me up, help me stand. I have been laying so low don't want to lay here no more. I But if everything that happens is supposed to be and it is predetermined, you can't change your destiny. Then I guess I'll just keep moving and someday, maybe, I'll get to where I'm going.
-amazing song tho,fucking really the best!
whatever...give me 5min and ill be smiling again.
Sam call me about the show and ill tell you whats up.Love ya boy,mwah!-Lates,xoxo!
"Return, return to the person that you were. And I will do the same because it is too hard to belong to someone who is gone. My compass spins. The wilderness remains. Once too often, I have retreated into the depths of my despair. I built a barricade to block you on the road. But standing there with all of my possessions, piled higher than a house, I felt closer to you than you ever could have known" -please return!