I know I'm young but if I had to choose him or the sun, I'd be one nocturnal son of a gun.
Quick update so if anyone actually reads this they're not lost as all hell:
Rimer is getting married. He's out of my life.
I'm not going to JU anymore. Stuff happened & I now go to community college here in Jax.
I live off campus in my very cute apartment with my roommate Judy.
I'm still an AEPhi.
I spent spring break in Key West ( LOVE IT) in a trailer with my very best friends.
This past semester I met German exchange students & they changed my life.
Enter random venting here:
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I miss Max. A lot.
Do I have any regrets? No.
I have successfully loved someone with all of my heart & soul & would not have treated one moment that I had with him differently. I love him completely.
I do not wish to take back one fight because it only made us stronger.
This apartment is so empty without him. It's the little things that genuinely hurt. Like his razor on my sink & his towel hanging up & his box of stuff he left behind in case he ever comes back.
I lost my #1 partner in crime.
I've noticed that since he left my life goes on but it's basically on auto-pilot. Judy & Ryman are dramatic. Have they always been that way and I just notice it now because Max isn't here to make me laugh?
This would be my life. He would have to go back to Germany.
I miss being 100% obliterated with him.
When am I honestly EVER going to be able to make it there? Christmas? For a week? What if everything changes?
"Leaving on a jet plane" is an automatic tear fest.
I talk to him almost everyday but I'm jealous of every couple there is that he's not here with me.
But I think the hardest part is my big fluffy empty bed.
It was perfection.
With a little love, & some tenderness
We'll walk above the water, we'll rise above the mess
With a little peace & some harmony
We'll take the world together, we'll take them by the hand
'Cause I got a hand for you
& I wanna run with you
Yesterday I saw you standing there
Your head was down, your eyes were red
No comb had touched your hair
I said Get up & let me see you smile
We'll take a walk together, Walk the world a while
'Cause I got a hand for you
& I wanna run with you
Hold my hand
I want you to hold my hand
Hold my hand
I'll take you to a place where you can be
Hold my hand
Anything you wanna be
Cause I wanna love you the best that I can.
Rimer is getting married. He's out of my life.
I'm not going to JU anymore. Stuff happened & I now go to community college here in Jax.
I live off campus in my very cute apartment with my roommate Judy.
I'm still an AEPhi.
I spent spring break in Key West ( LOVE IT) in a trailer with my very best friends.
This past semester I met German exchange students & they changed my life.
Enter random venting here:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I miss Max. A lot.
Do I have any regrets? No.
I have successfully loved someone with all of my heart & soul & would not have treated one moment that I had with him differently. I love him completely.
I do not wish to take back one fight because it only made us stronger.
This apartment is so empty without him. It's the little things that genuinely hurt. Like his razor on my sink & his towel hanging up & his box of stuff he left behind in case he ever comes back.
I lost my #1 partner in crime.
I've noticed that since he left my life goes on but it's basically on auto-pilot. Judy & Ryman are dramatic. Have they always been that way and I just notice it now because Max isn't here to make me laugh?
This would be my life. He would have to go back to Germany.
I miss being 100% obliterated with him.
When am I honestly EVER going to be able to make it there? Christmas? For a week? What if everything changes?
"Leaving on a jet plane" is an automatic tear fest.
I talk to him almost everyday but I'm jealous of every couple there is that he's not here with me.
But I think the hardest part is my big fluffy empty bed.
It was perfection.
With a little love, & some tenderness
We'll walk above the water, we'll rise above the mess
With a little peace & some harmony
We'll take the world together, we'll take them by the hand
'Cause I got a hand for you
& I wanna run with you
Yesterday I saw you standing there
Your head was down, your eyes were red
No comb had touched your hair
I said Get up & let me see you smile
We'll take a walk together, Walk the world a while
'Cause I got a hand for you
& I wanna run with you
Hold my hand
I want you to hold my hand
Hold my hand
I'll take you to a place where you can be
Hold my hand
Anything you wanna be
Cause I wanna love you the best that I can.