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Havent used this in a while.
Just need to get some things out of my head...
JU is completely amazing this year. I completely aced my Anatomy & Physiology exam and I now have a 100% average in that class. I loveeee all of my classes, which makes me sound like a huge nerd. I feel like I have found something I really want to do and am set on it. Last semester I fucked up. This is my semester to prove myself.
Things with Rimer are still crazy. He comes and cries and wants to be my friend and I dont know what to do. How many more chances do I have to give him? One half of my brain is going insane because he dicked me over in the most asshole way possible. The other half looks at all of the effort he's putting into this friendship. And alcohol isn't helping this situation either. Having a 4 hour conversation with him & not remembering the outcome doesn't make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I have forgiven him but I can't forget. Relationships are hard. I hate them.
On a side note I'm obsessed with Fiji. I love those boys more than anything. They seriously kill me cause they're just that crazy. Last night we had a Flintstones party. Last weekend was thug night. I love that shit.
Sometimes I need to just come back here & vent. It actually has helped clear my damn head.
I almost fell into that hole in your life
And you're not thinking 'bout tomorrow
Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees...
Coming down the world turned over
& angels fall without you there
I go on as you get colder
& I'll become what you became to me.