Learning to walk again
Today I received a letter in the mail.
It was the best letter I've ever gotten in my life, and although it makes me cry, I can't stop rereading it over and over again.
I think that maybe it's what I needed to finally start the moving on process that I've been trying so hard to pretend I've been going through. I've been repeating mantras and telling myself how to think, feel, act to take steps forward but no matter how hard I fake it, my emotions haven't been able to catch up with me. I know that over the past few months I've healed a little bit, and space and time has helped some of the hurt and guilt fade.
But this letter said everything that needed to be heard in such a simple, meaningful way. It's what I needed to dust myself off a bit. Standing up and walking is something I have to do for myself, but I think I've been sitting in a pile of dirt while trying to tell everyone and myself that I was taking slow steps just fine.
It meant the world to me, and I think I'll always cherish it and bring it out to reread it for years to come.
It was the best letter I've ever gotten in my life, and although it makes me cry, I can't stop rereading it over and over again.
I think that maybe it's what I needed to finally start the moving on process that I've been trying so hard to pretend I've been going through. I've been repeating mantras and telling myself how to think, feel, act to take steps forward but no matter how hard I fake it, my emotions haven't been able to catch up with me. I know that over the past few months I've healed a little bit, and space and time has helped some of the hurt and guilt fade.
But this letter said everything that needed to be heard in such a simple, meaningful way. It's what I needed to dust myself off a bit. Standing up and walking is something I have to do for myself, but I think I've been sitting in a pile of dirt while trying to tell everyone and myself that I was taking slow steps just fine.
It meant the world to me, and I think I'll always cherish it and bring it out to reread it for years to come.