Sep 13, 2010 09:33
Remember all the pretty things I said about getting myself together?
Well, I'm going to continue trying to pull that off ---- even though all the doctors in the world seem intent on killing me.
Yeah, guess who just got prescribed another month of penicillin? Do you want a clue? She's right here, writing this.
But you know what? This time, I AIN'T TAKING ANY MORE OF THAT SHIT.
I'd rather die slowly without penicillin, than take a single little white HATEFUL pill again.
Never again.
I don't care what they say, I'm going to phone the hospital again and demand something else. I don't care if they have to come up with a fucking miracle cure, I'm not going to eat stuff that MAYBE makes it better for a while but then kills me in the end.
Please, please, please just tell me what I did to deserve this.
Because I'm VERY close to just giving up and letting go.
I don't want to spend the rest of my life in pain.
sick,
crying tears of blood,
penicillin