I'm with Color Me Badd on this one...

[darlin_sane]

Okay, so I know I still haven't really elaborated on this post... I just haven't been in the mood to sit and intentionally stew about the whole thing enough to write about it. Plus those feelings have sunken down into my stomach for awhile, simmering on low and waiting for the next time I get antsy and crave massive amounts of inspiration before

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[locatei]

Well I think you already know where I stand on this as I have posted sooo many posts on this topic! But I'll repeat myself all over again lol.

You know that I'm polyamorous obviously. I don't dig monogamy. For me, it feels extremely unnatural and unrealistic to expect two people to forever commit to only each other [in the sexual aspect that is]. I know it works for some people but let's face it, a HUGE majority gets divorced all the time and perhaps if some explored polyamory, maybe the percentage of divorces would go down? Who knows. All I know is that when I look at it, polyamory makes perfect sense.

But even though I'm all poly happy, I definitely struggle with insecurity and jealousy and everything. It's only natural. Ultimately I think what it comes down to is that you can either choose:
a) OMG I'm jealous! You must not fool around, left alone date other people!!!
b) Hmm I'm feeling jealous, let's sit down and talk about this and work this through... so we both can feel more comfortable and happier in our relationship with each other and other people.

I obviously choose b. But of course it's not easy. It's fucking hard at times!! Sometimes I wish I could be the typical hetrosexual monogamous person, but then again, that's not so easy either I don't think so. Ah. Life.

Sexuality... I chose 2, as I think I am attracted to more males than females. I also have WAY more experience with guys than girls. But I would have a relationship with a girl boy, a transsexual, a FTM/MTF, etc. I really don't care about "what you are" sexuality-wise, I care about WHO you are inside out. Ultimately it's the personality that I am attracted to, alongside with looks.

Gender roles... is such a blurry line now I think. I mean look at people nowadays, boys are becoming more and more metrosexual and it's totally accepted in most places. Which I think is awesome. Genders really doesn't matter so much to me. Whatever you choose to identify with is cool with me. Personally I sometimes feel like a girl, sometimes like a guy and sometimes I have no fucking idea!