nerves?
I'm sitting here right now, in "our" apartment, surrounded by Dave's stuff that he just moved in today (he's at band practice) and I'm just like... weirded out and overwhelmed. And anxious. I feel like I'm going to start hyperventilating. I don't know if it's because I feel claustrophobic because I'm surrounded by so much stuff that is just sitting around me, unorganized, or if it's because of... you know. He moved in today and I STILL don't know if I'm ready! My stomach hurts. :( WHAT DOES IT MEAN IF MY STOMACH HURTS?
I have to make sure I still do things that make me feel free, like whizzing off to Toronto solo, or going out to a bar by myself to see a band I want to see (which I was going to do tonight... I really want to see Terror Lake and The Speaking Tongues at this little bar downtown but this anxious feeling is ironically making me want to stay home! ACK!)... because now that I'm not living by myself anymore, I'm going to have to take more steps to make sure I still have my own life.
Oh man I am seriously going to have a freaking panic attack. Maybe I'll go to CTO to watch Sebastien Grainger. kldjfakl;sdjfmrahmrahmrah.
Oh so, that girl that wanted me to be her hair model offered to dye my hair for me; all I'd have to pay for is product. Sweeeeet.
Ps. ack fuck it, I'm going to Terror Lake tonight. I can't miss them, I'll totes regret it. Gotta go get my rock'n'roll boots on!
I have to make sure I still do things that make me feel free, like whizzing off to Toronto solo, or going out to a bar by myself to see a band I want to see (which I was going to do tonight... I really want to see Terror Lake and The Speaking Tongues at this little bar downtown but this anxious feeling is ironically making me want to stay home! ACK!)... because now that I'm not living by myself anymore, I'm going to have to take more steps to make sure I still have my own life.
Oh man I am seriously going to have a freaking panic attack. Maybe I'll go to CTO to watch Sebastien Grainger. kldjfakl;sdjfmrahmrahmrah.
Oh so, that girl that wanted me to be her hair model offered to dye my hair for me; all I'd have to pay for is product. Sweeeeet.
Ps. ack fuck it, I'm going to Terror Lake tonight. I can't miss them, I'll totes regret it. Gotta go get my rock'n'roll boots on!