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Oh man. So much on my mind the past few days, so much to write about. Let's see if I actually have the energy to write about anything.
For the past two weeks or so I noticed I was having really bad anxiety about everything. Especially at work. I don't know why. I just felt really "off". Not myself. That feeling is really frustrating because I am someone who is usually extremely in touch with herself (snicker snicker!). I'm feeling better now, I think. Yesterday was a good day, I actually had a good night at work last night for the first time in a few shifts, and today is feeling alright too.
September has just been all-around a pretty crummy month, and from talking to friends it seems like it wasn't just me. It's because of stupid Mercury retrograde, which THANK GOD is over TODAY. Wahoo! We're all gonna start feeling a whole lot better, BRING ON ROCKTOBER YOU FUCKS!
(a sample of my September horoscope from Susan Miller's very bang-on monthly readings:
[...]This month you may have to fix a career situation quickly, however, for Mercury retrograde forces us to go back to examine and fix flaws. If a business relationship was never strong (even if you thought it was) you may see it unravel under this month's extreme aspects.
*Work has definitely been feeling kind of laggy lately... with the anxiety, plus I don't know what the fuck is going on with me getting more behind-the-bar shifts because it hasn't been happening so I've been frustrated with that...*
[...]The last tough aspect will arrive September 23: Mercury, ruler of your house of career, opposite Uranus, planet of surprise. The universe really does seem aggressively bent on presenting every possible flaw or problem this month. This particular aspect on September 24 could feel as though someone rubbed your skin with thorns. Mercury rules travel, among other things, so you would be best to delay travel on this day, even to the next town. Do not plan to see clients or to schedule important discussions.
*the 23rd was around the time when I started feeling REALLY weird and anxious and not myself. Majorly anti-social, on edge, wary of everyone...*
[...]As said, if you were born December 14 to 23, you will feel these aspects directly. There is not much you can do to prepare other than to not have an overly packed schedule, as you will need time to pull away from what you are doing to attend to sudden news. If something is not viable for the future, you will know about it and go to Plan B. Actually, no matter if you are forced to change, or do so by your own volition, you will move to a better place, so the final effect will be positive...)
***
I love the chill in the air lately, and the wind, and the total lack of humidity. It's really refreshing me and making me feel a bit more alive. I wish October-December could last all year. Or at least 10 out of 12 months. Two months of warm sunshine I think I could handle.
Band practice on Sunday night was fucking awesome. We were so tight, all of us were sounding great. I love practices like that, they make me feel confident in the band. Tonight is our very first "show"... it's not really a real show, per se, we're just doing a special timeslot at Casbah Lounge for their Open Mic night as a practice set for next Wednesday's big show. Three songs, 10-12 minutes or so. I haven't really been nervous, but now that I have to step on stage in like, 6 hours, I'm getting some jitters in my stomach, haha. I've never sang onstage before other than a couple karaoke stints, and I've only ever played onstage in front of an audience twice in my life. Yipes. I think I might smoke half a joint before the show to relax me - not too much though, because I've gone to practice fully stoned before and it was disastrous! Hahaha.
After next week's show, we're going to chill out for a couple of weeks and let Matt move into his new place and get settled, and then we're going to really hunker down and write a bunch of songs, and start booking some shows for late November/early December. A guy that Biff and Dave know is also going to record a 5 or 6 song demo for us pretty soon, probably mid-November, so that we've got something to give to people/put online. AND haha, so, we're all obsessed with ghosts and the paranormal and stuff like that, especially me, Dave and Matt, so at practice on Sunday we came up with an awesome idea for a shitty music video we're going to try and make soon for one of the songs. It's going to be a take on that show Ghost Hunters... we're going to film the whole thing in night vision, and do a pretend investigation like what they do on the show, and then parts of the video will be us playing in a room with Halloween costume-style white sheets draped over us with holes cut out for the eyes. I think that is such a hilarious fucking idea... I have to give Matt most of the credit for that! So yeah, that'll be a pretty fun/funny project, I can't wait to film it.
This week is going to be so good, I really like when my weeks look like this:
+ Last night, worked the awesome Micachu & the Shapes show at TAH... one of the opening bands was a lo-fi, fuzzed-out Hamilton hip hop trio called Canadian Winter. They were so fucking good! I loved them, and they were all really wicked dudes.
+ Tonight, of course, band practice and then our little set at Casbah.
+ Tomorrow my mom and I are finally having our Girl's Day... lunch, manicures/pedicures, casino!
+ Thursday Jeff is coming down from Woodstock to have lunch with me and spend some Jeffy Zee + LC time with me! I can't wait, I love lunch dates with Jeff. I miss that guy, it sucks that he lives so far away now. Then I work that night, and Friday night...
+ Saturday night WALTER LURE FROM THE HEARTBREAKERS (!!!) is playing at my bar! Holy jeezum crow I am tingling for this show! This will be the closest to The Heartbreakers that I will ever get to see live, and I'll take what I can get! I plan on getting shitty that night.
+ Sunday night is another wicked show at the bar... Tobacco (Black Moth Super Rainbow, Anticon) is BACK, and they are playing their ONLY ONTARIO DATE at This Ain't Hollywood! Ack! SO GOOOOD. I have a feeling that night might get crazy. My sexy friend Linda might come down that night for the show, and to molest me, and we are going to dance it up.
WOW. YES.
I am going to have to slip into a coma after October's over.
For the past two weeks or so I noticed I was having really bad anxiety about everything. Especially at work. I don't know why. I just felt really "off". Not myself. That feeling is really frustrating because I am someone who is usually extremely in touch with herself (snicker snicker!). I'm feeling better now, I think. Yesterday was a good day, I actually had a good night at work last night for the first time in a few shifts, and today is feeling alright too.
September has just been all-around a pretty crummy month, and from talking to friends it seems like it wasn't just me. It's because of stupid Mercury retrograde, which THANK GOD is over TODAY. Wahoo! We're all gonna start feeling a whole lot better, BRING ON ROCKTOBER YOU FUCKS!
(a sample of my September horoscope from Susan Miller's very bang-on monthly readings:
[...]This month you may have to fix a career situation quickly, however, for Mercury retrograde forces us to go back to examine and fix flaws. If a business relationship was never strong (even if you thought it was) you may see it unravel under this month's extreme aspects.
*Work has definitely been feeling kind of laggy lately... with the anxiety, plus I don't know what the fuck is going on with me getting more behind-the-bar shifts because it hasn't been happening so I've been frustrated with that...*
[...]The last tough aspect will arrive September 23: Mercury, ruler of your house of career, opposite Uranus, planet of surprise. The universe really does seem aggressively bent on presenting every possible flaw or problem this month. This particular aspect on September 24 could feel as though someone rubbed your skin with thorns. Mercury rules travel, among other things, so you would be best to delay travel on this day, even to the next town. Do not plan to see clients or to schedule important discussions.
*the 23rd was around the time when I started feeling REALLY weird and anxious and not myself. Majorly anti-social, on edge, wary of everyone...*
[...]As said, if you were born December 14 to 23, you will feel these aspects directly. There is not much you can do to prepare other than to not have an overly packed schedule, as you will need time to pull away from what you are doing to attend to sudden news. If something is not viable for the future, you will know about it and go to Plan B. Actually, no matter if you are forced to change, or do so by your own volition, you will move to a better place, so the final effect will be positive...)
***
I love the chill in the air lately, and the wind, and the total lack of humidity. It's really refreshing me and making me feel a bit more alive. I wish October-December could last all year. Or at least 10 out of 12 months. Two months of warm sunshine I think I could handle.
Band practice on Sunday night was fucking awesome. We were so tight, all of us were sounding great. I love practices like that, they make me feel confident in the band. Tonight is our very first "show"... it's not really a real show, per se, we're just doing a special timeslot at Casbah Lounge for their Open Mic night as a practice set for next Wednesday's big show. Three songs, 10-12 minutes or so. I haven't really been nervous, but now that I have to step on stage in like, 6 hours, I'm getting some jitters in my stomach, haha. I've never sang onstage before other than a couple karaoke stints, and I've only ever played onstage in front of an audience twice in my life. Yipes. I think I might smoke half a joint before the show to relax me - not too much though, because I've gone to practice fully stoned before and it was disastrous! Hahaha.
After next week's show, we're going to chill out for a couple of weeks and let Matt move into his new place and get settled, and then we're going to really hunker down and write a bunch of songs, and start booking some shows for late November/early December. A guy that Biff and Dave know is also going to record a 5 or 6 song demo for us pretty soon, probably mid-November, so that we've got something to give to people/put online. AND haha, so, we're all obsessed with ghosts and the paranormal and stuff like that, especially me, Dave and Matt, so at practice on Sunday we came up with an awesome idea for a shitty music video we're going to try and make soon for one of the songs. It's going to be a take on that show Ghost Hunters... we're going to film the whole thing in night vision, and do a pretend investigation like what they do on the show, and then parts of the video will be us playing in a room with Halloween costume-style white sheets draped over us with holes cut out for the eyes. I think that is such a hilarious fucking idea... I have to give Matt most of the credit for that! So yeah, that'll be a pretty fun/funny project, I can't wait to film it.
This week is going to be so good, I really like when my weeks look like this:
+ Last night, worked the awesome Micachu & the Shapes show at TAH... one of the opening bands was a lo-fi, fuzzed-out Hamilton hip hop trio called Canadian Winter. They were so fucking good! I loved them, and they were all really wicked dudes.
+ Tonight, of course, band practice and then our little set at Casbah.
+ Tomorrow my mom and I are finally having our Girl's Day... lunch, manicures/pedicures, casino!
+ Thursday Jeff is coming down from Woodstock to have lunch with me and spend some Jeffy Zee + LC time with me! I can't wait, I love lunch dates with Jeff. I miss that guy, it sucks that he lives so far away now. Then I work that night, and Friday night...
+ Saturday night WALTER LURE FROM THE HEARTBREAKERS (!!!) is playing at my bar! Holy jeezum crow I am tingling for this show! This will be the closest to The Heartbreakers that I will ever get to see live, and I'll take what I can get! I plan on getting shitty that night.
+ Sunday night is another wicked show at the bar... Tobacco (Black Moth Super Rainbow, Anticon) is BACK, and they are playing their ONLY ONTARIO DATE at This Ain't Hollywood! Ack! SO GOOOOD. I have a feeling that night might get crazy. My sexy friend Linda might come down that night for the show, and to molest me, and we are going to dance it up.
WOW. YES.
I am going to have to slip into a coma after October's over.