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i'm feeling pretty sick of myself today.
once again, i'm standing still. i'm frozen in time. things will be changing soon. they can't come soon enough. i'm sick of the stagnation.
i can't wait to go exploring in my (kind of) new city. i don't even want to go outside right now because i just don't want to be in London anymore. i want to leave.
i'm not allowed to stand still.
it does bad things to my brain.
have you ever thought about just deleting yourself from the internet? i've been thinking about it a lot tonight.
not my journal, i could never do that. not even my actual pages. i just mean like, most photos of myself. i'm tired of my face. i'm tired of my expressions. i'm tired of all of my photos of myself. most of them are of someone who is in my past. i sort of just want to take them all down. i don't know why. it's not for any reasons of insecurity or anything like that. i'm not sure why that temptation came over me.
i'm going to look at three apartments on thursday. here's hoping i fall in love with and get one of them.
pop the latches, open the hatches... out comes jack in the box.
once again, i'm standing still. i'm frozen in time. things will be changing soon. they can't come soon enough. i'm sick of the stagnation.
i can't wait to go exploring in my (kind of) new city. i don't even want to go outside right now because i just don't want to be in London anymore. i want to leave.
i'm not allowed to stand still.
it does bad things to my brain.
have you ever thought about just deleting yourself from the internet? i've been thinking about it a lot tonight.
not my journal, i could never do that. not even my actual pages. i just mean like, most photos of myself. i'm tired of my face. i'm tired of my expressions. i'm tired of all of my photos of myself. most of them are of someone who is in my past. i sort of just want to take them all down. i don't know why. it's not for any reasons of insecurity or anything like that. i'm not sure why that temptation came over me.
i'm going to look at three apartments on thursday. here's hoping i fall in love with and get one of them.
pop the latches, open the hatches... out comes jack in the box.