Catching up
Online/Offline ... and FIOS installation
I was offline for a bit while I was switching from one internet provider to another. Unfortunately, the status on each didn't overlap. But I'm back online now, with a new email addy, and now using my cellphone as my only phone access. That was hard to do as I have had the same number since I moved down here in 1983! I also had the same email addy since the late 80s. Now, I'm busy going to every website where I have used my old email, changing it to the new one. There are DOZENS of them, And I am not sure I'll remember them all! I had a bit of a glitch within the first 24 hours with FIOS TV ... the set top box/DVR failed. They came out about 4 hours after I called and replaced it. Good job. Each one of the installers who were here ... 2 of them the first day, and 1 with the replacement box, were all great. One of them said he was really impressed with me, lol. While he was doing all of the wall outlet installs, I started programming my internet/email configuration since the modem was already online. He said he has never had anyone do that before. I guess he hasn't done any installs for geeky customers, lol. It really was no big deal if you're familiar with setting up modems and routers. But his comment still made me feel good ;-)
Tropical Storm Fay
As I write this, Tropical Storm Fay is still being a pain in the butt for Florida residents (others too, I am sure ... but I have only had local news on). We are still getting a backlash ... in fact it just stopped hailing. Nickel size hail. Noisy! Lots of rain as the bands of the storm circulate. There has been quite a bit of damage in FL. Yesterday the governor asked for $20 million in support. So far, there have been at least 7 deaths in FL due to the storm. There may be more yet, because in some areas the flooding is severe and we are still getting storm surges along the Gulf shorelines. On the plus side, all of my plants and garden areas outside are getting good waterings and I haven't had to be out there with the hose so much.
Gardening
Speaking of the gardens, some of those plants I got a couple weeks ago have died ... from the heat and humidity I would guess. I always feel bad when a plant dies, even though these were free. Tomorrow I am going to give all of them a shot of seaweed fertilizer. I need to get some of that stinky fish fertilizer in September. I use it as a foliar spray and it really kicks up growth and health of the plants. Then there's the chicken poop fertilizer, lol!
The upstairs deck is still quite a mess. :-( I probably have another two weeks' worth of cleanup to go. Guess what! There were two more wasp nests built in the last week. I can't move too quickly at the moment and was afraid to get near them to use wasp killer, but the Verizon FIOS guy sprayed the nests for me, bless his heart.
My new posting format or method
As you can see, I am making "topic headers" for the things I write about now. This way, any of the peeps who might be reading my entries can skip topics that don't interest them. I am doing this for another reason too ... I am still experiencing "stuff" from the July debacle (phrased to acknowledge the sensitivity that some might have to these matters). So if you see a topic heading that you think might disturb you in any way, you can avoid that section. I haven't had time yet to learn about it, but there is an LJ feature where you can do an "entry cut", and this allows the poster (me) to insert "read more" as an active link that peeps would have to click on to read all of what I post on that particular topic. Because I was told that some of the things I posted on EBSQ were disturbing and distressing to members, and resulted in members asking administration to terminate me (so I've been told) I want to avoid doing this again. As soon as I have time, I will learn how to use this function and implement it here.
One of those disturbing/distressing topics ... avoid if necessary
At my last appointment with Dr F, we finally had a chance to discuss at length the things that happened to me in July ... temporary ban, the stalking accusation, and the vindictive permanent ban and destruction of my portfolio. Warning ... stop reading now if topics of conflict may disturb you.
As you might have heard, the ebsq administrator has publicly said that before any of the actions that were taken against me, she and another member of her staff (not named) allegedly talked to my psychiatrist, Dr F. My interpretation of that was that the statement was designed to assure other members that she/they were concerned about my wellbeing.
Actually, according to Dr F, nothing could be farther from the truth. This is what he told me:
On June 30th, the administrator placed a call to Dr. F. He picked up the voicemail the same day, but did not respond ... first, because of doctor/patient confidentiality issues, and second, because the message and tone of voice sounded to him like someone out to cause problems. (By the way, as I am describing these events, I am using his words to me which I wrote down in my book as we spoke). Another phone call was placed on July 11, AFTER I was sent the email banning me. However, I had been told in the "banning" email, that she had "already spoken" to Dr. F. and his weekend "backup". This was not true, according to what he told me. He did not respond to this message, nor did his "backup" for the weekend. In fact, Dr F does not have a "backup" on his staff. He receives and reviews all voicemail, messages, emails, etc., as they occur. He uses a combination of Blackberry with email notifications and the complete email following, as well as notifications of any calls or pages. He can actually write prescriptions from his car (!!!) that are immediately dispatched to either a designated pharmacist or his office (for pickup in cases of scrips for controlled substances).
Additionally, the administrator sent emails on both of those dates; the first to Dr F's assitant Shawn, and the second to Dr. F himself. In both cases, she allegedly cc'd the Assistant Director.
At that point in my discussion with Dr. F on Tuesday, August 19, in his office ... I requested that copies of the emails be sent to me, or printed off in his office so I could read them right then. To my surprise, he declined to do either of those things. When I asked him for his reason, he said that the emails were "caustic" and "just a bunch of garbage." This statement really shocked me, since he is normally very diplomatic in his speech.
Of course y'all know me ... I'm persistent. So I pressed him further to let me see the emails. Among his various comments on the matter, a few that I have written down in my book (my Franklin Planner that I have used for years) that he said the emails were:
caustic
vindictive
full of vitriol
garbage
would be to distressing for me to read
had a good probability of causing a setback in me
were written with the intent to drive a wedge between the doctor/patient relationship we have
Once again, these were all Dr. F's words. There was more as I recall, but I've only posted here the ones that I wrote down. I do not want to rely on my sometimes faulty memory here.
So, the information that is being "put out there" by the administrator is a fabrication. Well, let's call a spade a spade ... it is a lie. She is not interested in my well-being, nor was she concerned that her actions had such a serious, detrimental effect on me. Really, after the events of July, I thought that she couldn't be any more vindictive, but I see now that there's no end to it.
And why is this? Is it because she has a huge pile of egg on her face for believing a lie about me? Because she has never liked me? Only used me to accomplish her means in the past ... for instance, banning Diana Potts? She herself told me in emails and PMs how valuable a member I was in the group. lol ain't that a kick?!?!
Since then, within the past few days, my IP address on the site (ebsq) results in the message "this IP address ######### (my IP) has been banned". Before, I could see the public forums ... now I can't see them any more. This caused me some serious distress, since I had looked every day at the "Photos of the week" and it was a bright spot in my day. I particularly enjoyed the messages were the photographers/members would "THUD" each other, :-) How vindictive can you get?
So, I guess any photos I view will have to be on photo websites. The one I usually default to is Flickr.
By the way, if ANYONE wants to verify what I have said here with Dr. F, please let me know. I will gladly sign a HIPPA release for him to talk with you about it. I will also give you his email address and phone number. Of course those can be easily gotten on the board, either from the administrator, or a person who might have gotten them while in my home, accepting my hospitality.
A very interesting (good) turn of events
Because I sent out that "mass" email with my new phone and email addy info, I'm hearing back from some people from my past. This has resulted in some good things. One of them is that I am becoming active again as a volunteer for SNAP (Survivors Network of those Abused by Priests). I'll get into that a bit more later.
Caturday
I hear that Lauren is keeping up with Caturday, in spite of what a pain it is with that 30-second rule. Way to go Beanie! The tradition lives on, lol!
Chewsday
I missed Chewsday here on LJ this past Tuesday because I was offline. I'll have an extra good one this coming Tuesday, so if you are a Chewsday fan, or know someone who is ... be here Tuesday!
Medications ... Mental health
I'm doing ok on the new med (Pristiq)! I'll talk about that more later, but I am very happy and relieved about that. So far so good!
later ......................
I was offline for a bit while I was switching from one internet provider to another. Unfortunately, the status on each didn't overlap. But I'm back online now, with a new email addy, and now using my cellphone as my only phone access. That was hard to do as I have had the same number since I moved down here in 1983! I also had the same email addy since the late 80s. Now, I'm busy going to every website where I have used my old email, changing it to the new one. There are DOZENS of them, And I am not sure I'll remember them all! I had a bit of a glitch within the first 24 hours with FIOS TV ... the set top box/DVR failed. They came out about 4 hours after I called and replaced it. Good job. Each one of the installers who were here ... 2 of them the first day, and 1 with the replacement box, were all great. One of them said he was really impressed with me, lol. While he was doing all of the wall outlet installs, I started programming my internet/email configuration since the modem was already online. He said he has never had anyone do that before. I guess he hasn't done any installs for geeky customers, lol. It really was no big deal if you're familiar with setting up modems and routers. But his comment still made me feel good ;-)
Tropical Storm Fay
As I write this, Tropical Storm Fay is still being a pain in the butt for Florida residents (others too, I am sure ... but I have only had local news on). We are still getting a backlash ... in fact it just stopped hailing. Nickel size hail. Noisy! Lots of rain as the bands of the storm circulate. There has been quite a bit of damage in FL. Yesterday the governor asked for $20 million in support. So far, there have been at least 7 deaths in FL due to the storm. There may be more yet, because in some areas the flooding is severe and we are still getting storm surges along the Gulf shorelines. On the plus side, all of my plants and garden areas outside are getting good waterings and I haven't had to be out there with the hose so much.
Gardening
Speaking of the gardens, some of those plants I got a couple weeks ago have died ... from the heat and humidity I would guess. I always feel bad when a plant dies, even though these were free. Tomorrow I am going to give all of them a shot of seaweed fertilizer. I need to get some of that stinky fish fertilizer in September. I use it as a foliar spray and it really kicks up growth and health of the plants. Then there's the chicken poop fertilizer, lol!
The upstairs deck is still quite a mess. :-( I probably have another two weeks' worth of cleanup to go. Guess what! There were two more wasp nests built in the last week. I can't move too quickly at the moment and was afraid to get near them to use wasp killer, but the Verizon FIOS guy sprayed the nests for me, bless his heart.
My new posting format or method
As you can see, I am making "topic headers" for the things I write about now. This way, any of the peeps who might be reading my entries can skip topics that don't interest them. I am doing this for another reason too ... I am still experiencing "stuff" from the July debacle (phrased to acknowledge the sensitivity that some might have to these matters). So if you see a topic heading that you think might disturb you in any way, you can avoid that section. I haven't had time yet to learn about it, but there is an LJ feature where you can do an "entry cut", and this allows the poster (me) to insert "read more" as an active link that peeps would have to click on to read all of what I post on that particular topic. Because I was told that some of the things I posted on EBSQ were disturbing and distressing to members, and resulted in members asking administration to terminate me (so I've been told) I want to avoid doing this again. As soon as I have time, I will learn how to use this function and implement it here.
One of those disturbing/distressing topics ... avoid if necessary
At my last appointment with Dr F, we finally had a chance to discuss at length the things that happened to me in July ... temporary ban, the stalking accusation, and the vindictive permanent ban and destruction of my portfolio. Warning ... stop reading now if topics of conflict may disturb you.
As you might have heard, the ebsq administrator has publicly said that before any of the actions that were taken against me, she and another member of her staff (not named) allegedly talked to my psychiatrist, Dr F. My interpretation of that was that the statement was designed to assure other members that she/they were concerned about my wellbeing.
Actually, according to Dr F, nothing could be farther from the truth. This is what he told me:
On June 30th, the administrator placed a call to Dr. F. He picked up the voicemail the same day, but did not respond ... first, because of doctor/patient confidentiality issues, and second, because the message and tone of voice sounded to him like someone out to cause problems. (By the way, as I am describing these events, I am using his words to me which I wrote down in my book as we spoke). Another phone call was placed on July 11, AFTER I was sent the email banning me. However, I had been told in the "banning" email, that she had "already spoken" to Dr. F. and his weekend "backup". This was not true, according to what he told me. He did not respond to this message, nor did his "backup" for the weekend. In fact, Dr F does not have a "backup" on his staff. He receives and reviews all voicemail, messages, emails, etc., as they occur. He uses a combination of Blackberry with email notifications and the complete email following, as well as notifications of any calls or pages. He can actually write prescriptions from his car (!!!) that are immediately dispatched to either a designated pharmacist or his office (for pickup in cases of scrips for controlled substances).
Additionally, the administrator sent emails on both of those dates; the first to Dr F's assitant Shawn, and the second to Dr. F himself. In both cases, she allegedly cc'd the Assistant Director.
At that point in my discussion with Dr. F on Tuesday, August 19, in his office ... I requested that copies of the emails be sent to me, or printed off in his office so I could read them right then. To my surprise, he declined to do either of those things. When I asked him for his reason, he said that the emails were "caustic" and "just a bunch of garbage." This statement really shocked me, since he is normally very diplomatic in his speech.
Of course y'all know me ... I'm persistent. So I pressed him further to let me see the emails. Among his various comments on the matter, a few that I have written down in my book (my Franklin Planner that I have used for years) that he said the emails were:
caustic
vindictive
full of vitriol
garbage
would be to distressing for me to read
had a good probability of causing a setback in me
were written with the intent to drive a wedge between the doctor/patient relationship we have
Once again, these were all Dr. F's words. There was more as I recall, but I've only posted here the ones that I wrote down. I do not want to rely on my sometimes faulty memory here.
So, the information that is being "put out there" by the administrator is a fabrication. Well, let's call a spade a spade ... it is a lie. She is not interested in my well-being, nor was she concerned that her actions had such a serious, detrimental effect on me. Really, after the events of July, I thought that she couldn't be any more vindictive, but I see now that there's no end to it.
And why is this? Is it because she has a huge pile of egg on her face for believing a lie about me? Because she has never liked me? Only used me to accomplish her means in the past ... for instance, banning Diana Potts? She herself told me in emails and PMs how valuable a member I was in the group. lol ain't that a kick?!?!
Since then, within the past few days, my IP address on the site (ebsq) results in the message "this IP address ######### (my IP) has been banned". Before, I could see the public forums ... now I can't see them any more. This caused me some serious distress, since I had looked every day at the "Photos of the week" and it was a bright spot in my day. I particularly enjoyed the messages were the photographers/members would "THUD" each other, :-) How vindictive can you get?
So, I guess any photos I view will have to be on photo websites. The one I usually default to is Flickr.
By the way, if ANYONE wants to verify what I have said here with Dr. F, please let me know. I will gladly sign a HIPPA release for him to talk with you about it. I will also give you his email address and phone number. Of course those can be easily gotten on the board, either from the administrator, or a person who might have gotten them while in my home, accepting my hospitality.
A very interesting (good) turn of events
Because I sent out that "mass" email with my new phone and email addy info, I'm hearing back from some people from my past. This has resulted in some good things. One of them is that I am becoming active again as a volunteer for SNAP (Survivors Network of those Abused by Priests). I'll get into that a bit more later.
Caturday
I hear that Lauren is keeping up with Caturday, in spite of what a pain it is with that 30-second rule. Way to go Beanie! The tradition lives on, lol!
Chewsday
I missed Chewsday here on LJ this past Tuesday because I was offline. I'll have an extra good one this coming Tuesday, so if you are a Chewsday fan, or know someone who is ... be here Tuesday!
Medications ... Mental health
I'm doing ok on the new med (Pristiq)! I'll talk about that more later, but I am very happy and relieved about that. So far so good!
later ......................