Self Improvement & All That Jazz
Lyrics I Like:
“For all the truth that you made me see, for all the joy u brought to my life for all the wrongs that you made right”
Okay okay I know it’s a bit obsessive to make 2 entries in one day but wat the heck I feel like it, got a problem? Good… I didn’t think so! Look at me im even having an attitude with the computer! This is sick! I am super cranky today nobody better annoy me cuz I will freak! Trust me the only thing that saves me from myself is my lunch hour wit my buddy Cliff aka ninja! Lol He is the only constant thing in this freakin office I think I would have been in meltdown mode if it weren’t for him… (Thanks Cliff, thank you to the ABSOLUTE GENIUS who put a TV in the break room & thank you to the creators of “The Steve Harvey Show” LoL.) I sure do hope the rest of the week looks a lot better than this cuz I am not down for Monday round 2 L… but hey good news I just got paid! That’s good, so that I can go get Frisco his gift! But then again I might not even be able to see him that day (sarcastically: thanks mom) … I just don’t get the human nature… guys are stupid and females are even stupider… trust me I speak from experience I hate this innate need to have attention from the opposite sex. I must admit I am one of its biggest victims but dammit man I wish I wasn’t. I love it when ppl call me, I love to feel important to people, but am I as important to myself as I wish I were to others? Can there ever really be a person that loves himself or herself completely? Is that a myth cuz to me it feels like it… I have not met one woman or man who doesn’t want the approval of someone… whether it be friends, lover, family or co-workers. Are we doomed to an existence of neediness? Is that a freakin word? Don’t know don’t care to be frank. And who in blue hell is frank? Was he the first honest/blunt man?? Or was he just this big jerk that no one liked because he just blurted out anything that came to his narrow-minded little head… so then people started sayin being blunt = frank? Watever too much in my own life to think about stupid things like history… I’ll wait til skool starts for that crap… maybe I’ll look it up on my laptop while I have nothing to do in my classes cuz lord knows I have the attention span of a goldfish (personally I think the goldfish has a better attention span… sad huh? Ask Frisco or Lauren they’ll tell u.) But yea back to me! I just wanna be someone else… but doesn’t everyone? There is not one doubt in my mind that everyone and I mean everyone even guys once in there life says “I wish I was like him/her” or ”I wish I was as good at (fill in skill) as this person” & “I wish I could do (fill in activity) like that person”… its crazy… if only people knew wat I was thinking in my head… they would realize that I may be the most silly, random, caring, ridiculous, and fanatical person that they have ever met. Hmmm I want some cake… you see, this is wat im talkin about exactly… random thoughts are such a regular occurrence that I have given up and just let them be. But this coming year imma just be me cuz its amusing that people actually like the real me not the freshman me who tried to please everyone… so im giving up on tryin to be perfect for everyone else and just gonna be perfect for me (and maybe Lauren just cuz she is fabulous. Been wit me thru thick and thin J.) I kno im not perfect at all just yet but I think I kno how I can get there… my ten commandments for self-loving (and you don’t have to go and buy it at Barnes & nobles where it would cost you about $25 and then it would take like 30 chapters to get to the point)
1. Thou Shall Not Hate (Whether it be on the opposite sex or the same…especially the females! Gosh!)
2. Thou Shall Not Lie (White Lies That Harm No One Are Excluded)
3. Thou Shall Not Put Anyone Down (unless its a jerk who doesnt have a clue…cuz then its your duty to give them 1)
4. Thou Shall Love All
5. Thou Shall Trust Few
6. Thou Shall Remain True To Thyself (even if inside ur really a dork)
7. Thou Shall Not Snitch or Spread Rumors (even if they may in-fact be true)
8. Thou Shall Be Open-Minded
9. Thou Shall Stick to His/Her Morals (never lower yourself)
10. And Last But Not Least Thou Shall Not Judge for The Only Judge is God …and he isnt here right now so I’d be glad to take a message after all I am an angel J okay maybe not but it did sound cute LOL and if u arent laughin at that part then remember commandment number 1 sucka!
“For all the truth that you made me see, for all the joy u brought to my life for all the wrongs that you made right”
Okay okay I know it’s a bit obsessive to make 2 entries in one day but wat the heck I feel like it, got a problem? Good… I didn’t think so! Look at me im even having an attitude with the computer! This is sick! I am super cranky today nobody better annoy me cuz I will freak! Trust me the only thing that saves me from myself is my lunch hour wit my buddy Cliff aka ninja! Lol He is the only constant thing in this freakin office I think I would have been in meltdown mode if it weren’t for him… (Thanks Cliff, thank you to the ABSOLUTE GENIUS who put a TV in the break room & thank you to the creators of “The Steve Harvey Show” LoL.) I sure do hope the rest of the week looks a lot better than this cuz I am not down for Monday round 2 L… but hey good news I just got paid! That’s good, so that I can go get Frisco his gift! But then again I might not even be able to see him that day (sarcastically: thanks mom) … I just don’t get the human nature… guys are stupid and females are even stupider… trust me I speak from experience I hate this innate need to have attention from the opposite sex. I must admit I am one of its biggest victims but dammit man I wish I wasn’t. I love it when ppl call me, I love to feel important to people, but am I as important to myself as I wish I were to others? Can there ever really be a person that loves himself or herself completely? Is that a myth cuz to me it feels like it… I have not met one woman or man who doesn’t want the approval of someone… whether it be friends, lover, family or co-workers. Are we doomed to an existence of neediness? Is that a freakin word? Don’t know don’t care to be frank. And who in blue hell is frank? Was he the first honest/blunt man?? Or was he just this big jerk that no one liked because he just blurted out anything that came to his narrow-minded little head… so then people started sayin being blunt = frank? Watever too much in my own life to think about stupid things like history… I’ll wait til skool starts for that crap… maybe I’ll look it up on my laptop while I have nothing to do in my classes cuz lord knows I have the attention span of a goldfish (personally I think the goldfish has a better attention span… sad huh? Ask Frisco or Lauren they’ll tell u.) But yea back to me! I just wanna be someone else… but doesn’t everyone? There is not one doubt in my mind that everyone and I mean everyone even guys once in there life says “I wish I was like him/her” or ”I wish I was as good at (fill in skill) as this person” & “I wish I could do (fill in activity) like that person”… its crazy… if only people knew wat I was thinking in my head… they would realize that I may be the most silly, random, caring, ridiculous, and fanatical person that they have ever met. Hmmm I want some cake… you see, this is wat im talkin about exactly… random thoughts are such a regular occurrence that I have given up and just let them be. But this coming year imma just be me cuz its amusing that people actually like the real me not the freshman me who tried to please everyone… so im giving up on tryin to be perfect for everyone else and just gonna be perfect for me (and maybe Lauren just cuz she is fabulous. Been wit me thru thick and thin J.) I kno im not perfect at all just yet but I think I kno how I can get there… my ten commandments for self-loving (and you don’t have to go and buy it at Barnes & nobles where it would cost you about $25 and then it would take like 30 chapters to get to the point)
1. Thou Shall Not Hate (Whether it be on the opposite sex or the same…especially the females! Gosh!)
2. Thou Shall Not Lie (White Lies That Harm No One Are Excluded)
3. Thou Shall Not Put Anyone Down (unless its a jerk who doesnt have a clue…cuz then its your duty to give them 1)
4. Thou Shall Love All
5. Thou Shall Trust Few
6. Thou Shall Remain True To Thyself (even if inside ur really a dork)
7. Thou Shall Not Snitch or Spread Rumors (even if they may in-fact be true)
8. Thou Shall Be Open-Minded
9. Thou Shall Stick to His/Her Morals (never lower yourself)
10. And Last But Not Least Thou Shall Not Judge for The Only Judge is God …and he isnt here right now so I’d be glad to take a message after all I am an angel J okay maybe not but it did sound cute LOL and if u arent laughin at that part then remember commandment number 1 sucka!