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sittin here at around what im guessing is 6 am, drinking a corona as ive been doing for most of the night!
Im sad, been crying on and off for most of the night, but for once not for selfish reasons.
but for the purpose of death of a loved one.
after almost 14 years of loving this being, his time is now done.
i am speaking of my cat who i have had/loved for almost half my life. it may seem silly to some to feel this upset over an "animal" but he has always been there for me. always happy to see me, no matter what my mood was, sad happy depressed, sick. he was always there with me. when i use to come home late at night after being out all night drinkin and id come home to my toilet to puke, he would sit next to me all night then lick my face.
Yet now i sit here feeling so bad that there is nothing i can do for him, and the only thing that i can do for him, that i know is right makes me feel so fucking sad. i know that tomorrow we must put him to sleep, if he even makes it through the night. I am so attached to this cat it isnt even funny!! i feel closer to him more so then i have felt to most humans i have been in contact with, his innocence is so beautiful to me and now so depressing. These past few months/years have been the most difficult time in my life, now this. I really am hopeing that certain things do happen for a reason, and hope i do come out stronger from everything that i have been going through recently.
Im sad, been crying on and off for most of the night, but for once not for selfish reasons.
but for the purpose of death of a loved one.
after almost 14 years of loving this being, his time is now done.
i am speaking of my cat who i have had/loved for almost half my life. it may seem silly to some to feel this upset over an "animal" but he has always been there for me. always happy to see me, no matter what my mood was, sad happy depressed, sick. he was always there with me. when i use to come home late at night after being out all night drinkin and id come home to my toilet to puke, he would sit next to me all night then lick my face.
Yet now i sit here feeling so bad that there is nothing i can do for him, and the only thing that i can do for him, that i know is right makes me feel so fucking sad. i know that tomorrow we must put him to sleep, if he even makes it through the night. I am so attached to this cat it isnt even funny!! i feel closer to him more so then i have felt to most humans i have been in contact with, his innocence is so beautiful to me and now so depressing. These past few months/years have been the most difficult time in my life, now this. I really am hopeing that certain things do happen for a reason, and hope i do come out stronger from everything that i have been going through recently.