Just a normal night out, I guess.
I'm not mightily drunk. I'm just merry. And. I'm not majorly sad, just sad. I'm not woop and yay happy, just solemn. But! Let's think about things. Not only am I lucky. I'm also blessed, because I have amazing friends.
Strange. I was just about to 'hurt' myself, but I decided, if he was watching, if that was possible, then he really wouldn't want me to. I held back, and I haven't done that for a long time. He still has power over me!
Thank god for pizza when you've had alcohol. It always helps.
I don't really have much to say, except, I'll echo a text I sent tonight. I can't believe that it's four years, that next year it'll be five years he'll have been gone. And. If he had never gone what would have happened? Would he still be in my life?
Strange. I was just about to 'hurt' myself, but I decided, if he was watching, if that was possible, then he really wouldn't want me to. I held back, and I haven't done that for a long time. He still has power over me!
Thank god for pizza when you've had alcohol. It always helps.
I don't really have much to say, except, I'll echo a text I sent tonight. I can't believe that it's four years, that next year it'll be five years he'll have been gone. And. If he had never gone what would have happened? Would he still be in my life?