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"Queen - The Show Must Go On
Empty spaces - what are we living for
Abandoned places - I guess we know the score
On and on
Does anybody know what we are looking for
Another hero another mindless crime
Behind the curtain in the pantomime
Hold the line
Does anybody want to take it anymore
The show must go on
The show must go on
Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on
Whatever happens I'll leave it all to chance
Another heartache another failed romance
On and on
Does anybody know what we are living for
I guess I'm learning
I must be warmer now
I'll soon be turning round the corner now
Outside the dawn is breaking
But inside in the dark I'm aching to be free
The show must go on
The show must go on - yeah
Ooh inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on
Yeah, oh oh oh
My soul is painted like the wings of butterflies
Fairy tales of yesterday will grow but never die
I can fly - my friends
The show must go on - yeah
The show must go on
I'll face it with a grin
I'm never giving in
On with the show
I'll top the bill
I'll overkill
I have to find the will to carry on
On with the
On with the show
The show must go on, go on, go on, go on, ..."
I just want to tell me to shut the fuck up. To squeeze everything out of me. To leave me empty and a sheep, but without all the conflicts and hurt inside. I don't want to become brainless and someone regarded as thought they're like everyone else, but it seems so much easier than this. Than living by my principles. They may be good, and I may like them but they hurt me sometimes. Gah. I'm just feeling a bit weepy and sad.
*queue drums*
I went shopping today with my marmee. I did some Christmas shopping! Woo! I bought Dayan's mum something. I think it's luffly and fitting. Heh. Only something small though. I bought Huggie a badge (just because it's so fucking him) which has a bulldog on it (a sketch of one anyway) and it says "All the bitches love me". Haha. It's so funny. He'll like it, I'm sure. I bought quite a few calenders for people =\. I bought Joe something! A balloon modelling kit! Haha. SO perfect for him. I bought my Nanny a nice necklace. I bought my sister the Guiness Book of Records, which, apparantly, she's been begging people for. Haha. And I got it for only a tenner.. and even then I didn't really pay for it because I had looads of book tokens. With these book tokens I got my sister's present, my nan's calender, a book for me and my mum, a Psychology revision book (I KNOW how disgusting is that of me?!) and.. something else.. I'm sure. So yeah. A lot of shopping happened. Oh and my mum bought me and her a t-shirt, with the same slogan but different colours. It says "I'm hanging with my gnomies" and it's brown with three gnomes on it. Fucking hilarious.
Me and my mum are getting a personal trainer. Haha. I'm involved because it's ten pounds cheaper for me. Apparantly this guy rarely does two people at the same time but he likes the fact it's a mum and daughter thing. Yay us! He's going to sort out what I eat (thank fuck, that really needs changing) and he's not going to make me exercise too much because of back, so we're going to sort that out. Thank god.
My hair has been really nice the past two days. Go me!
Ugh. Work was ridiculous on Friday. My boss is ill and isn't coming back until two weeks yesterday. So yesterday I had to do some job for someone else and I left two hours early feeling bored and as though everything I do is pointless. So I'm not going in next week, and instead of work I shall be waiting for our new kitchen to be delievered. My life is a joy, I assure you. Also, no one at work likes _me_, they all know my mum and just think of me as her daughter. meh. And.. the woman who sorts out my pay didn't know I worked Fridays as well, and so if I was going to get paid this month (which I'm not and is a whole new rant) it would only have been for Wednesdays, so I have to write down all the times I've worked. LONG AND GAY.
Empty spaces - what are we living for
Abandoned places - I guess we know the score
On and on
Does anybody know what we are looking for
Another hero another mindless crime
Behind the curtain in the pantomime
Hold the line
Does anybody want to take it anymore
The show must go on
The show must go on
Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on
Whatever happens I'll leave it all to chance
Another heartache another failed romance
On and on
Does anybody know what we are living for
I guess I'm learning
I must be warmer now
I'll soon be turning round the corner now
Outside the dawn is breaking
But inside in the dark I'm aching to be free
The show must go on
The show must go on - yeah
Ooh inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on
Yeah, oh oh oh
My soul is painted like the wings of butterflies
Fairy tales of yesterday will grow but never die
I can fly - my friends
The show must go on - yeah
The show must go on
I'll face it with a grin
I'm never giving in
On with the show
I'll top the bill
I'll overkill
I have to find the will to carry on
On with the
On with the show
The show must go on, go on, go on, go on, ..."
I just want to tell me to shut the fuck up. To squeeze everything out of me. To leave me empty and a sheep, but without all the conflicts and hurt inside. I don't want to become brainless and someone regarded as thought they're like everyone else, but it seems so much easier than this. Than living by my principles. They may be good, and I may like them but they hurt me sometimes. Gah. I'm just feeling a bit weepy and sad.
*queue drums*
I went shopping today with my marmee. I did some Christmas shopping! Woo! I bought Dayan's mum something. I think it's luffly and fitting. Heh. Only something small though. I bought Huggie a badge (just because it's so fucking him) which has a bulldog on it (a sketch of one anyway) and it says "All the bitches love me". Haha. It's so funny. He'll like it, I'm sure. I bought quite a few calenders for people =\. I bought Joe something! A balloon modelling kit! Haha. SO perfect for him. I bought my Nanny a nice necklace. I bought my sister the Guiness Book of Records, which, apparantly, she's been begging people for. Haha. And I got it for only a tenner.. and even then I didn't really pay for it because I had looads of book tokens. With these book tokens I got my sister's present, my nan's calender, a book for me and my mum, a Psychology revision book (I KNOW how disgusting is that of me?!) and.. something else.. I'm sure. So yeah. A lot of shopping happened. Oh and my mum bought me and her a t-shirt, with the same slogan but different colours. It says "I'm hanging with my gnomies" and it's brown with three gnomes on it. Fucking hilarious.
Me and my mum are getting a personal trainer. Haha. I'm involved because it's ten pounds cheaper for me. Apparantly this guy rarely does two people at the same time but he likes the fact it's a mum and daughter thing. Yay us! He's going to sort out what I eat (thank fuck, that really needs changing) and he's not going to make me exercise too much because of back, so we're going to sort that out. Thank god.
My hair has been really nice the past two days. Go me!
Ugh. Work was ridiculous on Friday. My boss is ill and isn't coming back until two weeks yesterday. So yesterday I had to do some job for someone else and I left two hours early feeling bored and as though everything I do is pointless. So I'm not going in next week, and instead of work I shall be waiting for our new kitchen to be delievered. My life is a joy, I assure you. Also, no one at work likes _me_, they all know my mum and just think of me as her daughter. meh. And.. the woman who sorts out my pay didn't know I worked Fridays as well, and so if I was going to get paid this month (which I'm not and is a whole new rant) it would only have been for Wednesdays, so I have to write down all the times I've worked. LONG AND GAY.