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old habits. so easily slipping back onto it after 3 years of nothing. i hate where i am right now. this place inside me. i should have seen it all coming. why would it be any different this time. never have i got approval before, so why now especially when its all so close to home. i just wanted to be happy. and once again, its all my fault.
i couldnt be alone last night. i scared myself so much when i was alone. so, i went to him, and he held me, and made things feel better. i crawled back into my bed in the early hours and i felt alone again. i wish his mind was free so we could try. it could be perfect.
i dont know what to do. im at a loss.
i just cant cry anymore.
i couldnt be alone last night. i scared myself so much when i was alone. so, i went to him, and he held me, and made things feel better. i crawled back into my bed in the early hours and i felt alone again. i wish his mind was free so we could try. it could be perfect.
i dont know what to do. im at a loss.
i just cant cry anymore.