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I want to message you so badly. Tell you that I miss you. That I can't stand not having you in my life. Still kills me that I don't know what all it was that happened. All the things you wanted to share. It kills me knowing I may never talk to you again. That I may never feel your arms wrapped around me. That I may never feel your lips on my forehead. Or on my lips. That I may never see your smile again. Or hear the sound of your laugh. I may never feel your body next to mine as we try to sleep. I may never feel you slowly drift off to sleep. Your body jerking as you fall further into sleep. It all just kills me. Part of me wants to message you. Part of me wants to call you. And part of me want to drive out there on my next off day just to see your face. Even if just from a distance. I miss you that much. I miss you so much it hurts. How do I do this? How do I live normally after knowing that I could be happy? How do I survive you not loving me?