I still feel the burn but the flames have been put to rest...
To you all:
Well Im done... Done with all this pity me, my life sucks, and I want to die bullshit... I realized how truly pathetic it is... My desperation was my self-mutilation... I tore myself apart for nothing... Shes happy... Let it be... Im happy for her... Shes my best friend... As for me... Daryls not a backstabber... Me and Jenny werent even talking about going back out... I sat down and talked to him... Ive talked to her... And I realized... I just over exaggerated all of it... Yes I still love her... But thats expected considering we have such a great history together... I will always love her... Love is never dying... But its also not solitary... You can maintain love for one person and fall for someone else... I see it everywhere I look... I need to learn to deal... Nicotine and Alcohol and Robo cant be my only escape... I have to find my happiness in the arts like I use to back when this all began... I need to use what little talent I have instead of letting it waste away... Ive realized a lot this last week... And I even think I am developing a slight crush... I need to holster it though because pursuing that will either leave me rejected or coming in the way of something too great to mess up... Yes my heart is still heavy... And yes those memories will never die... But maybe shes right in saying I need to move on... The bad part is even the girl I kind of have a crush on told me today that I needed to get back together with Jenny... I cant let this girl know I like her... I dont know what to do... Im just going to play it by ear... The answers will come in good time... But enough being depressed... Enough broken hearted rants... Its time to live life instead of regret and wasting it... Too all who read this... Dont take this as I no longer care about her or that I am just dropping it to make myself find a placebo for the pain... I do care... Thats why Im trying to be her best friend... But thats all she wants so I think its time I gave her that one thing....
C/o Garry Himself
Well Im done... Done with all this pity me, my life sucks, and I want to die bullshit... I realized how truly pathetic it is... My desperation was my self-mutilation... I tore myself apart for nothing... Shes happy... Let it be... Im happy for her... Shes my best friend... As for me... Daryls not a backstabber... Me and Jenny werent even talking about going back out... I sat down and talked to him... Ive talked to her... And I realized... I just over exaggerated all of it... Yes I still love her... But thats expected considering we have such a great history together... I will always love her... Love is never dying... But its also not solitary... You can maintain love for one person and fall for someone else... I see it everywhere I look... I need to learn to deal... Nicotine and Alcohol and Robo cant be my only escape... I have to find my happiness in the arts like I use to back when this all began... I need to use what little talent I have instead of letting it waste away... Ive realized a lot this last week... And I even think I am developing a slight crush... I need to holster it though because pursuing that will either leave me rejected or coming in the way of something too great to mess up... Yes my heart is still heavy... And yes those memories will never die... But maybe shes right in saying I need to move on... The bad part is even the girl I kind of have a crush on told me today that I needed to get back together with Jenny... I cant let this girl know I like her... I dont know what to do... Im just going to play it by ear... The answers will come in good time... But enough being depressed... Enough broken hearted rants... Its time to live life instead of regret and wasting it... Too all who read this... Dont take this as I no longer care about her or that I am just dropping it to make myself find a placebo for the pain... I do care... Thats why Im trying to be her best friend... But thats all she wants so I think its time I gave her that one thing....
C/o Garry Himself