Made up holidays and pulled uterii
Fucking miserable. I feel fucking miserable. I have no idea what to do to cheer myself up. I feel totally unbalanced. There are things that I am legitimately upset about, but this sinking, heavy, awful feeling should not accompany that irritation. I want to get back on the anti-depressants. I keep saying that and not doing anything about it. But these ups and downs.. they just can't go on... I feel awful. I don't care if it's a crutch. It's a damn good one.