Kittiesssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well not much has happened since the last time I updated... not very suprising knowing me but oh well... but there is one thing that did happen since then... "My asian is in my bush" god i love you guys... only you Julie, only you... I'm going to miss all of my friends once they leave... I'm not quite sure what I'm gonna do without you guys... school is going to be so dull without you there to be... well yourselves I guess... on a brighter note I suppose you could say my life has been getting better... I mean after all I'm finally accepting the fact that I'm alone in this world and that things will never work out for me... no matter how hard I try nothing ever works in my favor... and I'm too afraid of reality and the truth to go out there and take things into my own hands... its depressing seeing these people that actually have something to live for and here I am... cold and alone for the rest of my miserable existince... and whenever someone tries to get to know me I get frightened and end up pushing them away so I'm even more alone then I was to begin with... all I really want right now is someone to talk to... someone who will be there for me when I have problems... but whenever someone tries to be ther for me I push them away... all because I'm too afraid of myself to let anyone else fall victim to it's sick and twisted ways... well I'm thoroughly depressed now so I'm going to go now... Thank you and have a nice Fuck Off...